One of my posts was flagged abd now I feel ugly and like I don’t belong
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Well, for starters, you are definitely not ugly.
I used to be bullied as a child and teen for being ugly and when I had voices 24/7 they used to always say that I am ugly and that I am too ugly to be seen so they said I am not aloud out of the apartment.
Thankfully my voices I had went away and I’m better now.
I try to improve myself inside and out.
I can’t be bothered putting makeup on every day and I am not so good at applying it but a bit of colour on the lips can do a lot so sometimes I wear only lipstick and nothing else.
I had Botox between my eyebrows .
The woman who raised me are against Botox and believe in aging naturally .
I used to be that way but I changed my mind.
They both look really grumpy with their upside down smiles.
I’m trying to remove mine which they would not approve of.
I want to save up for a facelift but it might take me a few years or more to save up for it.
Could take ages to save up for it.
Maybe it’s because I was bullied etc but I do want to put some maintenance into my physical appearance.
I know they say inner beauty but I try to improve myself inside and out.
I think the aura can be beautiful and charisma but if you are not in your body that can’t be seen anyway so all that is seen is the body.
Maybe you can feel a bit awful but look well.
I saw a lady today who is 83 or 82 and she is absolutely gorgeous.
She was very dolled up.
I think her lipstick matched her nails.
If I live that long I would love to take such good care of myself and get dolled up like that.
I should get dolled up more often but I’m not that good at applying makeup or maybe I just do t have the artistic passion for it so I do I think in a non passionate way.
I dressed badly the other day and regretted it.
I want to dress better.
If I need help to dress better I will ask for help or save money and meet a stylist consultant.
Of course confidence and self love and pride are of importance but I don’t want to give up on my physical appearance and my natural beauty can need a little help I reckon specially since my aura is often not in my body or visible as such.
@bluerose. Your post was flagged because of the mention of alcohol. I went ahead and deleted your post.
Please try not to worry about it. You definitely belong here! 
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That makes sense, sorry about that
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Dont worry about it. Alot of people get flagged. Including me sometimes. Its not personal - havent read your post - but its nothing to stress over. 
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Amother older lady I know is looking so gorgeous too but without makeup.
She is looking so happy and charming.
Happier than last time I saw her or happier than I have ever seen her before.
That’s the mum of the other woman that raised me.so a person can get happier with age.
The other woman that raised me just smiled and looked so gorgeous and adorable.
A smile can do a lot but that ain’t easy if you are unwell.
Every one may have their beauty.
At my gym the woman I find prettiest is a fat one not the skinny fit other ones.
She has charisma I think.
Hope you will feel better soon and feel beautiful and loved.
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You look very well,if this is your recent picture
Thank you @anon70049667 it is very kind of you to say so. In all honesty it was taken at the start of being prescribed abilify two years ago. I don’t look so well now as I have gained weight. I have it as a reminder to do something about the weight gain and am in the process of doing something about it now. I think I look sad in this photo. I did not want to be prescribed antipsychotics.
Beauty changes from time to time,I don’t think few kg’s more would change it.You don’t look sad,you look like Australian actress.
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good to see you
you doing ok?
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Little sad,because life sucked all my virtues.I used to be religious,and Now I can’t stand in church for half an hour.We stand while mass is going.I’m getting slowly but surely old.Thanks for asking.
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I know, it’s an hour long, lots of kneeling and standing and sitting
my son just always wanted to sit. I thought he had the right attitude, :).
you be all holy and ■■■■? I didn’t know that. I just like kid’s Mass.
Thank you again @anon70049667, it is more than a few kg’s that I have put on and it doesn’t seem to matter how little I eat. I have just invested in diet/meal replacement shakes and will give that a go. I hate to leave the house so have decided that I will go walking at night time with my sister’s dog in an effort to lose the weight once and for all. I get inspiration here when I hear of other people’s success stories.
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I see that you’re kind and hope you will stay here for long.Also,post more,it helps.
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It happen to me more than four times u get well when u learn not to text when u hear voices telling u what to say . it is a time to stop and exit chart. A small amount of voices is good but know when it like many demons will make u get flagged
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