Anxiety Rant

[mermaid1]

One day I will wake up and feel fine, I will feel ‘normal’ Everything will make sense. I will not feel agitated and crazy. I will feel calm, content and focused.

I have been dealing with this illness for such a long time. Since 2010. I was 22 years old. No one had any clue what was wrong with me. I suffered for a very long time.

Now I still suffer, doing basic things, making a meal every day is a huge chore. I lack interest in everyday life.
I am edgy for no reason, all the time. At least L-Theanine is helping me a little. Imagine my life before L-Theanine. I lost my job, I had dyskinesia, I could not take the metro and perform basic tasks. Humiliation has become part of my identity.

I’m grateful for all that I have. Wish I can feel okay. Just okay.

[Wave]

I’m sorry that you are having such a hard time lately @mermaid1.

I am sick and tired of all the anxiety and paranoia I am feeling all the time as well.

I wish that I didn’t have to suffer all of the time.

[roxanna]

Hugs. I wish I could feel happiness again. For you too. Life is difficult. Esp mental illness. It’s ruined a lot of things

[antidepressant044]

I’m so sorry. Anxiety is such a buzzkill. I struggle with it too. I wish I knew what to suggest to help you. All I do, personally, is distract, distract, distract but that can be kind of unreliable.

[anon62371846]

I have been without anxiety for a long time. But tonight i feel very anxious. I feel like im not happy about not things turning out fine. Im upset that things are not fine. But at the same time im thinking what if i start enjoying being anxious?

I lay in my bed and my head is cleared from thoughts about how to make things better…and then i take a mental turn and enjoy my empty head.