I know I talk about past lives here a lot like they’re real. I think it bothers people. I know some people have had past lives, but not like mine, I guess.
Am I the only one here on this forum or maybe Earth?
I’ve even constructed my own theory, but it’s not complete. It’s like a jigsaw puzzle.
Basically, I’m stuck living the exact same life over and over again for eternity. But I’m only conscious or remember the part after my illness. Like I’m stuck in the year 2011 or something–maybe even after.
It differs very, very slightly. I want to live a long and healthy life. I remember stuff from the future or parallel universes, which to me are my past lives.
I believe I was experimented on to say the least…
I believe this is my core delusion right now. I believe I’m immortal. Well, quasi-immortal. I remember all the bad ■■■■ that happened to me.
I remember being forced to watch TV. I remember dying in a war, which I’m afraid to talk about.
I just want to be safe and left alone. I wanted to know if there are other schizophrenics out there like me?
Without getting too metaphysical or religious, people are very much different and unique, separated from each other physically, but somewhat connected spiritually.
I don’t want to humour you delusions too much, but the notion that one person has / is living everyone’s lives out simultaneously is similar to the God-belief in Sikhism that we are all a part of God, and that He is experiencing everyone’s lives at once.
Now, thinking that oneself is actually God is usually the precursor to a relapse.
I can’t vouch for the objectivity of your “past life” memories, but suffice to say that I am not you, and neither is anyone else on the forum, unless you have like sock puppets or something.
I believe in reincarnation…it’s a normal spiritual belief. Another of my beliefs is if a person commits suicide, they are reincarnated into a life with all the exact same problems as the one where they killed themselves, because all of our lives are so important and contain critical lessons we must learn to evolve as spiritual beings. So by my belief system it could be you’re perhaps stuck on an incredibly difficult lesson. Perhaps you’ve killed yourself so many times you’re permitted to be somewhat aware of it at this point in hopes you can avoid doing so again. I dunno.
One thing that upsets me about being diagnosed with psychosis is you’re suddenly not allowed to have spiritual beliefs anymore. It’s all psychosis. Spirituality is an important component of being human. So I made a rule from studying my past delusions to help me determine what was delusion and what was spiritual belief—>if it revolves around YOU it is a delusion. If it is a belief about existence and the nature of life in general, it is a spiritual belief. I am very cautious and critical of any beliefs I get which revolve around myself, make me special or put me in the spotlight in some way.