@dividedself I get what you’re saying but I don’t think we can speak of “political (or even religious) problems” in the same breadth as we speak of existential problems when describing a personal presentation of psychiatric interest - with the notable exception, of course, of “sluggish schizophrenia” in the former Soviet Union. That’s not to deny a possible correlation between psychosis and excessive preoccupation with existential themes, and conversely the possible negative impact of existential anxiety on mental health.
Phenomenological psychiatry does place self disturbance at the heart of schizophrenic experience, and from that point of view every psychosis - including presumably mine- entails some form of existential crisis. I’m not sure I agree with this anymore. But more importantly, my only persistent symptoms are centred around these classical existential themes. I don’t experience panic attacks or excessive anxiety, paranoia, nor voices, thought disorder, negative symptoms, intrusive thoughts, thought intrusion or blocking, I never thought I had special powers, in fact, none of my unusual beliefs have ever strayed very far from bread and butter existential concerns. Do I worry more than it’s healthy about these topics? Probably. Do I suffer from schizophrenia? I seriously doubt it.
This is simply not true and I am an example of it.
I’ve been off APs for a year and am having pretty aggressive positive symptoms.
It was my choice to come off the medication and deal with the consequences.
I’m just saying, not being on meds doesn’t mean a lot.
That said,
I don’t know if you’re schizophrenic or having some sort of crisis,
But whatever it is is serious.
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@goldenrex Why serious? I’m mostly feeling fine. I was just enjoying a good book and a nice cup of hot chocolate, and now I’m off for my daily constitutional. These are not the actions of a madman!
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You have times where you’re stable and times when you’re flirting with death, having delusions that are dangerous.
Look through your topics, man.
You’ve posted some out there ■■■■.
Being obsessed with whether or not you are sane is not an act of a sane person.
Plus, you’re here, on a schizophrenia forum, almost everyday.
Do you accept benefits for being schizophrenic?
Are you willing to tell those people you’re not schizophrenic?
I’m not trying to talk down to you,
I like you,
Just pointing out some things I’ve noticed.
And don’t try to say you were trolling us.
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He has already stated in previous posts that he suffers from OCD. These mental ruminations he cannot let go of by OCD’s very nature.
This explains @NotSeksoEmpirico 's actions in itself whether he be suffering from psychosis spectrum disorder or not.
I am just pondering whether the problem is that your OCD cannot be resolved by yourself, or can ocd work in that you need validation of your belief system from external sources? If it is the latter, then you really are in a pickle.
Don’t forget you had visual and aural hallucinations in the past where you conversed with the ‘devil’(positive symptoms), plus you lack motiviation to clean your room (negative symptom). Do you wash, bathe and clean your teeth daily? Do you wear clean clothes? I mean this is what the doctors look out for.
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@labratmat I’ve never had aural hallucination and my dialogue with the devil is a figure of speech, just a way of explaining in widely understood concepts my explanation for my own existence. But there is something that bugs me about the OCD hypothesis though: I’ve never accepted, not for a moment, that I suffer from sz. So paradoxically I’m trying to convince others - as if what we believe is what we are-that I don’t suffer from sz but without disclosing my ever shifting reasons for not believing it. In that sense I am seeking validation from others.
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Why bother? If it was to convince a doc to take you off a deadening medication, I’d see the point, but you are not medicated.
Let it go and get on with your life!
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Do u have advice how to get my doc to take me off meds
No, sorry I don’t.
Function ‘normally’ and slowly have them taper you down. It takes years to get them to take you off meds or even try it.
That’s only going to work when you’re fully stabilised and they are convinced you don’t pose a risk to yourself or others. Given your age I’m sure they’ll be proceeding with great caution and seeking the best possible long-term outcome. Each case is different.
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I am fully stable except for mild paranoia
I am functioning normally
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It didn’t take years it happened one day when I had a vision.
What was this vision like?
I had a vision at the hospital that lasted hours. I wore a shirt with the number 47 so that connected and it was revealed I would die at age 47 by lethal injection after I was dictator for 7 years. The vision included the North Korean army. And when a girl with black hair was my sitter I was convinced she was 39 and they were making her dye her hair in preparation for her to be dictator in a year. I also had an Asian man be my sitter and I thought he was Kim Jong Un who they managed to sneak in. I’m not sure how all the ideas came in but they unfolded like a dream. It was revealed that I would die at age 47.
Lets not encourage or reinforce others delusions and problems. I think this has run it’s course.
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