Am i dreaming

i am 35 years old female.live in europ.its been 5 years since i have schizophrenia.i only took meds for 2 weeks.no one takes care me.i suffered for nealy5 month.until one day i watched a movie about a ghost control a girl.then i suddenly feel like those voice r demon.

i ignored those voice for 3.days.it disappear.as long as u pay attention to it.

but after a year.one day those voice came back again.i feel horrible.lots illusions.i even wanna kill myself.its hard period

what i want to say is its 5 years.becoz i only took 2 weeks meds during those 5month.i been looking for a way to let me recover.

i saw the moive beautiful mind.about john nash.i can’t say he is successful.becoz he is like us.during his previous life.he suffered from his diease.everybody look down on him.everyday like a black but when he had schizophrenia and back to school.lots people helped him let he win the nobel price.everyday is white.

just like normal transformer.nothing special.he find a stupid way to help himself (from my opinion )

i try to contact few people who have schizophrenia.let they stop meds to help each other.then the plane crashed.we all very frighten and stop contact each other.

i start study last year like john nash.i thought it could be a good way.but then after few month a bomb in paris.

now i was thinking i shoul try a guy who had heart diease.and we can help each other.because when people dislike me.my heart jump fast.so i think maybe it could work out

what do u think

sometimes i feel like i know lots things.like pyramid
stone henge.transform.who hates me.who likes me who potentially have schizophrenia

but those r not what i want.i just want a normal life.of course normal afterlife

of course those voice will help u understand nature.maybe i really don’t know what i want

what do u think

My dream is that I AM dreaming and that I’ll one day awaken from a coma and at least have my family and logical world that isn’t all some kind of sick lie back.

It was all a dream. That’s my dream.

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coma comb or come(calm)

or u need comb ur hair everyday.make u more beautiful and get a gf or bf
or u stay calm when u talk to ur parents