Differential diagnosis is what you’re asking for.
I used to do the same thing. Maybe not on the forum but to friends. There’s always going to be uncertainty especially with mental health diagnoses. You have to learn to believe your drs.
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Simply consider your self as a schizophrenic and being in safer side by taking meds.
Your Crystal cotton 
who excessively worries
yes but am i delusional
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Those are delusions and you are obsessive.
My husband is a Freemason and it’s nothing.
Just a bunch of old dudes memorizing passages and preforming odd ceremonies.
They’re not running the world, they’re struggling for membership.
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