Yesterday, I had a psychotic episode. Today, I spent the entire night with blurred reality. As I was posting on here, I was constantly in and out.
About a few hours ago, I started to have intense voices and visual hallucinations. I had a shadow who was repeatedly chocking and torturing me, and I was gasping for breath. It said that if I don’t kill myself, it will kill me. I fought against this hallucination for two hours. Later, the bugs started to appear on my legs. I started to panic and I tried so hard to take off the shadows. The bugs were crawling, I was choking and gasping for breath, and the voices were shouting at me and commanding me to kill myself.
Someone was helping me through this as I was having one and he saved my life. He talked me through it and after we hung up I found all of my joints twisted from putting too much strength on them. I could barely use my right feet. I told my mom that my ankles were twisting, and she put me on braces right away. Now I’m resting and trying to keep away from the hallcination who is hesitating if it should keep choking me or not.
This really sucked but I made it through and I am so grateful. So glad I survived, and I’m so glad that I have my friends to support me. There is a hallucination that is grabbing my wrist but I don’t really care anymore. I’m done with this ■■■■.
Thanks for reading, friends.