I’m afraid to go to sleep tonight. I know it’s mostly just anxiety, but I can’t make it it stop. There’s a persistent voice that keeps saying things like “she’s already dead” and “you’ll never get to her in time” and “it’s going to happen again” and “this has to happen.”
My daughter is sick. She’s just got a fever, nothing really scary. But her temp keeps going up even after we gave her medicine. So it’s a little scary.
I’m afraid to go to sleep though. So many what ifs. And my PTSD is flaring because what if this is RSV and she stops breathing and dies? What if she has a seizure? What if she vomits and chokes on it?
So much could so easily go wrong and I’d have no idea.
Next time she wakes up I’m going to ask my sister to sleep on the couch and I’ll sleep in Little LED’s room with her tonight.
Thanks. I wish I could get a handle on this anxiety. Meds aren’t helping. I keep seeing flashbacks to the past and it’s scary. Then the voice joins in and makes me miserable. No way I’m sleeping tonight.
I’m sorry you’re dealing with this @LED. I can only imagine what you’re going through. I’ve never had children but i can imagine the fear you must have. I am sure she will be okay though. Kids get sick and these things usually pass. I hope you are able to get some rest and i hope Little LED feels better soon. Take care.
It’s been hovering around 103.5-104.5 even with meds. Finally with a combo of acetaminophen and ibuprofen together it’s come down to around 102. We just got home from a 3 hour trip to the doctor’s.
That’s good news. Having a sick child is terrible, when I was a toddler I got a few earaches that were just the worst pain ever. I really hope her fever breaks and she gets better soon.
Thanks. Luckily we were able to bribe her with taco bell to finally eat and drink something and now she’s really perked up. Poor thing has just been so miserable all day.
Well, the chest x-ray results just came through. She’s got bronchitis, which is viral, so there’s not a whole lot they can do but keep her comfortable.
She doesn’t have a cough yet, though, so hopefully that’s not too bad when it does show up.
I’m even more worried about her breathing at night, though. I think I’ll sleep in her room again tonight.
So scary when kids are sick and not much can be done. I remember sleeping in my kids rooms when they were ill. I wish you a restful night and that your little one feels better soon.
((Hugs))