For some reason, I get a rush from being triggered, and I like it while it can be terrifying at the same time. Idk, I’m just normally emotional blunted inside, and then I get triggered by something, and I get an adrenaline rush, something I can actually feel. Plus my meds have made my symptoms be less intense and much less anxiety causing so when I get triggered there’s slim chance for danger.
That’s something I think a lot of us can relate to. It’s similar to a story I heard on a podcast once about a reporter who had PTSD from reporting on the war. He said that he had PTSD not because he was terrified, but because he loved it. He went around doing a lot of dangerous stuff to try to catch the dragon.