Got a late night phone call and a very nice chap has agreed to be my AA Sponsor - he has a history of MI as well, so it wont be the usual banter of AA saying you should abstain for “everything” including Psych Meds.
Hes gonna drive me to meetings i cannot travel too - so hopefully i will be going to AA 6x a week now. The CMHT will be pleased im finally helping myself lol.
I feel i need that level of support at the moment. I am just a 5 minute walk from a bar - so that support “hopefully” will stop me from going out and getting sloshed.
Its about time i started helping myself - instead of blaming all sundry for the SZ for years.
Wife not been in touch for couple of weeks - i really wanna see my dumpling next saturday. Dont want to hassle her tho - Ive already taken a dislike to her current partner, but i gotta keep my gob shut, or it wont end well.
I only wanna be bloody loved - Is that too much too ask for these days!!??