A word I was looking for is "dull'

Whether I get dull from meds or from lying to myself - funny thing is it has the same effect. Keeping a clear mind is much more exciting.

I have a pretty good ability to keep myself entertained through long bouts of solitary tedium. I do it by fantasizing. I’m not sure it is healthy to do that as much as I do. It leaves me out of touch with many of the ordinary complexities of everyday life.

Do you know what keeps your mind from working on the practical?