A robot, maybe someone can relate

For the last two years, this year even more, i feel like a robot, or a soulless mechanism.
Doing things only because they have to be done.
Eat, sleep, **** √ check
House work √ check
Parenting √ check
school work √ check

Hey let’s go out, its Friday and it’s a rule, you have to feel good. Okay, i will go out and smile, just counting hours until I’m back home and cry.
Oh i forgot, stupid Zoloft won’t let me cry

Only thing i care for is how to serve people so everyone’s happy. A robot.
And if people aren’t satisfied and they yell, robot feels like his system should be shut down.

I prefer feeling comfortably numb.


I’m sorry. I’ve been feeling like a robot for the past 2 years also. Honestly if I have motivation, I wouldn’t mind. You just need to push yourself a little bit. At least you have emotions and you can cry. I haven’t cried in a really long time.

Maybe if you focus on realizing a dream, it could give you some positive emotions? or if you focus on achieving small goals? Can you think of what used to make you happy before this?

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Yeah, I can’t cry either

I cant cry and i don’t dream.
Like, I’m not really depressed, i can mildly function and pretty good cover myself, but i really don’t want anything.
You know, like wanting something from the hearth and feeling it and enjoying it.

Maybe you should make some time for yourself. Go on a date or something. Go out to eat, or to a movie. People shouldn’t begrudge you making a little time for yourself.

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Do you exercise? Swimming helped me a lot on those issues

And I’m pathologically depend on reactions and demanding of other people.
Like i need others to approve my existence.

@crimby i don’t want anything for myself. Just…odd :confused:

Nope. My life style is :wc:

You should try and do some exercise, it really helps


I feel like the old me died. In some ways I did. I’ve been sitting here for a few hours now, it’s pretty, uh, depressing.

Just don’t give up. You said you’re a parent? Your kids need you.

I am just a sick dog, no one needs me, I am a big scary problem. I still find reasons to keep going. Sometimes I just laugh at how ■■■■■■ up life is.

I am so paranoid that my personal self has been robbed from me. The Japanese say that every person has three faces: the one they show the world, the one they show loved ones, and the one they show no one. I always feel like I am being watched, and in public I see and hear people talk about me as if they do watch me–the Truman Show delusion. I do not have a face I show no one; everyone sees it.

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Exactly. I was so different two or three years ago. It feels just like that: dead inside.

And, i have one kid. One kid, I’m done, thanks.

One kid is nothing to take lightly-- I have none and probably will never have any. I’m actually a little jealous.

I feel dead inside - not a lot of emotions - no mania, depression - this is probably a good thing in a way.

I dont need the added drama - this means that the meds I am on are doing their job.

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Yeah, his grandpa had sz and I’m crazy myself. And he grows without father figure.
Just “perfect”.

It’s like floating in the vacuum.
I can’t see beyond today.

Maybe you are a bit depressed @Sarad

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Routines are good for people with schizophrenia, of course these routines may feel robotic but at least n this way we can be in control.

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I used to hate routine, now I cant really cope without it.