We don’t have to be embarassed of our psychotic behaviors. It’s no ones fault.
Maybe some of you need it as well.
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Time heals the embarrassment of psychosis eventually. At least it has for me.
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That’s good to know 
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brrrrrrrrrrrpppppaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
I’m more or less openly insane with my friends. Not much embarrassment to it at all… strangers can go ■■■■ themselves… a great number of them just seem frustrated and depressed. At least I’ve found some way to be happy in the noise.
Take care minnikers… You’re the best!
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You know what? I don’t think I feel embarrassed by anything I have done or said while psychotic more recently.
But my psychosis in my twenties is another story. I do have shame around that.
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I wince to remember. Glad it’s only memories. I did a normie problem today - spilled the coffee.
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I like that thought 
I feel a bit proud to have at least made top of my class with a bachelors, rightfully so, as I was arrested my freshman year for psychotic alcoholic antidepressant and preworkout interaction one night. I did some nasty ■■■■ and I have done some good ■■■■ all in one go.
As for the present, it’s nice to have some time off, but the insomnia has been a bitch. I will get it settled before graduate school in the fall.
I remind myself that I used to be identity-first, schizophrenic, not person-first, an individual with schizophrenia. We are like drunks when we are sick; it’s the schizophrenia speaking, not us.
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I need to remind myself to work hard,move forward and be less fearful 
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meh… some days I let go, other days I have flashbacks. This illness makes you weak cause you can not defend yourself. I remind myself to take it one day at a time, focus on good things and my blessings.
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me too! Yesterday was a flashbacks day, today it’s a let it go day. meh 
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yeah… just mental illness is a constant battle for me. especially my past. My main issue is that I don’t know how to let go some things. I don’t know why. Just certain people and events. Hopefully in June, with therapy I will learn stress management and do CBT. I hope I can focus though. My laughter has decreased a whole lot now.
How’s your therapy going?
Oh honey sorry to hear that! You’re such a cheerful person!
Hopefully therapy will help you with that. I always come out more happy from sessions
Therapy has been good for me. Reaaally good. I’m much more stable and cycling less and less. Avoid all the drama now, a little more lonely, but starting classes next fall will help with that, right now I’m enjoying it.
I’m going to move to another neighbourhood in a month. That’s cheering me up. There’s a nice gym near, a lot of trees and parks and coffee shops and stores
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oh I’m so happy for you. Do you really think I’m cheerful? Honestly I don’t get a lot of compliments, so I don’t know how I come across sometimes. :o) 
that’s good to hear about therapy… I was worried a little bit that I might be more stressed. Let’s see :o)
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You’re a very kind, warm hearted, sweet and funny person. I wouldn’t worry about how you come across. Full of qualities
Thanks!
Don’t worry too much, if it’s not good for you or it turns out you don’t like your therapist you can always find a new one. Is it CBT?
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First when she called me she said she is an occupational therapist.
I told her I’m pretty functional I just have some symptoms and negative side effects + I got fired so I don’t know if I can work.
So when I met her, she said we’ll do stress management, CBT and then we talked about me volunteering, so in 3 months I will apply maybe in the hospital or elderly place where I can do some work or talk or help somehow and see if I can handle it. I just have negative obsessive disorder and sometimes I laugh, I move my mouth when I get angry. etc
But for example, when I’m doing makeup, I’m fine. I can focus and it’s like therapy. I enjoy it. But with graphic design, my focus is just not there. I drift while working.
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I have negative obsessive thoughts as well, it sucks. I’m trying to keep positive because of that, rumination and obsession over small things it’s tireing.
Well, she seems to know what she’s doing, that’s great. And volunteering is awesome, hospitals are a load of work, very stressful. But you can do it
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yeah… I would love to volunteer at the hospital. or work with the elderly if I can, maybe cook or talk to them. It will help me fill up my schedule and do something good too for the community. My practical French is not very fluent, so I hope I can find something.
I hate the obsessive disorder… it’s ruining my life… it’s just a lot of resentment. I hope soon with therapy, I will learn to let it go.
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I have to go now sweety! Talk to you later 
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