It sure hasn’t been easy and some days ain’t worth ■■■■ but I am glad to be alive and I try and focus on the things in my life I can attribute a gratitude towards.
When I compare my life to many others - I got it pretty good. I think a good occupation for a SZ is a truck driver or something working with things and not too many people.
I have tried every medication out there and have found that they cause more problems than solutions. I take Klonopin only for anxiety.
I worked as a real estate investor, held a variety of jobs big and small and did well as a day trader.
I am currently on SSDI and have been on and off more most of my life since I was diagnosed at age 18. I’ve had several good relationships with women and helped be a good father to some of their kids (I never felt stable enough to have my own kids) - that sometimes makes me sad.
Me and my girlfriend moved from the SW of America to the Mid West and we’ve rented a modest house with a big backyard for my German Sheppard and Pit Bull mix.
I ride my Harley Davidson with others often and plan as many Road Trips as possible that my girlfriend and I take together and sometimes with others. I spend my days watching movies or messing around on the computer or playing xbox…I ride my bicycle when ever I can cause doing so really fills my soul and gives me a sense of doing something - I attend Narcotics Anonymous meetings to feel like I am part of something.
I don’t fit into this world but I don’t think I ever have and that is okay cause I feel good and when I feel bad I just keep on. Life ain’t so bad – I also smoke cigars - I don’t drink or do drugs – I try to focus on eating only healthy food, lots of water & I have a few tattoo’s.
I cannot stress the importance of exercise and good eating to alleviate symptoms of this disease …it is not easy life as I’ve said but it can be a pretty decent one - Only the Strong will Survive