10 year schizophrenic who thought he was a "Targeted Individual"

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Hello,

I first began my journey as a schizophrenic in July of 2014, right after losing my job at a news station. I was brought to my parents house and then put on a psych hold because of voices in my head. I began reading on the internet and found “Targeted Individuals”. I thought I was targeted by everything from Fusion Centers, to FBI Agents to Police and my neighbors until this year and off and on before that. I ran a Twitter account for Targeted Individuals that I now feel was disingenuous and believed in things like AI’s playing my voices and shield beanie’s blocking vision and dream broadcasts.

What got my off of this train of thinking is ordering books on Audible about schizophrenia. I have about 7 books that I listen to over and over for the answers to schizophrenia. I also found helpful posts on reddit to convince me that there was no such thing as a “Targeted Individual”. I am on Invega, Clonazepam and Seroquel currently.

Moving around has helped me to free myself of voices and situations of less stress do the same thing. Out of town I feel comfortable on lower doses of benzodiazepines, while in town I often feel stressed out.

I once thought I was targeted by a CIA agent who’s email somehow ended up in my linkedin contacts and that I was in “Voice to Skull” communication with the White House for an indictment.

Feel free to ask me anything!

_aleetman

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Hi. My first full fledged psychosis popped up about 10 years ago as well. I was a ‘late bloomer’ in early my early 40’s.

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sorry to hear you lost your career…I lost mine as an architect and was also late onset at 35 I had my first psychosis…it’s a shame what this disease does to professionals…so sorry.

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Thank you for your support. I was able to maintain an internship at an AI company earlier this year where I worked 2 hours per day maintaining some social media websites. Other than that, I’ve been on SSDI.

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Hi, I have also felt being a targeted individual.

Did you ever feel you were under “external” control? Or, you just had voices?

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Welcome to the forum :slight_smile:

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Welcome to the community!

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Welcome man…

I also struggle with T.I stuff. It’s not the same as what your delusions were but it sucks man !

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Welcome to the forum @aleetman

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Depends on what you mean by external control. I once thought OpenBCI and MEG machines could move my arms and neck when connected by radio waves. Not the healthiest of thoughts.

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I used to think I was Ti. Now I’m halfway dissuaded

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Same here. I still worry some about my neighbors but I’m mostly over it or thinking it wasn’t real. Idk

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Welcome to the forum.

I too feel better out of town. There are less ppl to be paranoid about which helps mine.

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I just figured out my opening my mouth a little bit so that I talk that every voice is just my inner monologue in different voices, big breakthrough!

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I was convinced I was a targeted individual too. But then I realised it was a strange aspect of schizophrenia - the fact that we all experience sometimes scarily similar delusions

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