The motivation I built last week collided with a weekend filled with catching up with friends instead of seeing my intentions through. Had to be done, but now I finally have some free time and the ambition has waned.
There are so many things I want to do and I can get any of it organized or any of it done. I think I should just relax, but after all the obligation of the last 5 days. I know that now is my shot to get some things done.
Blurrg… still can’t take those first steps that get the ball rolling.
I feel you, man. Start with something simple. For example, if I’m feeling cold I start by doing the dishes as it warms me up and by the time they’re done, the reward cascade has been tickled enough to snowball a little.
I tend to procrastinate on things too. I got a painting commission two weeks ago and I’m really excited about it but I’m having a hard time getting going. I put down a base layer on the canvas just this week end, but I don’t like it so I have to start over.
getting the ball rolling is tough, no doubt about it. learning how to keep two or three in the air is just as hard. it’s all hard. one night in ten, and i can’t be alone here, i go to bed somewhat mystified that i managed to get through the day. why bother? because the alternative is worse.
