I am uncomfortable sharing my story that will be in a publication.
That’s fine oolaloola. But I wouldnt be referring to you by name or anything. Just referring to ‘another schizophrenic’s’ point of view.
@Vasu_Devan1 we value anonymity on here. If others want to volunteer their stories to you that is fine. If you start using this site as research for you book and pushing people to share things they’re not comfortable with, or start using people’s stories without their consent, we will have to step in.
@ninjastar I realize a public forum is not a preferred place to talk of things we may be uncomfortable discussing. Is there any way I can share my email to let them contact me separately? It says I cant put links in when I include my email in posts…
No absolutely not. Please read the forum rules. Contacting members offsite is strictly prohibited.
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I don’t mind sharing what I experience but there is obviously some things I wouldn’t want to be in a book but I know that reading books help me in my hardest times. There isn’t alot of things out there talking about schizophrenia and how we arent monsters like most people think we are so I think its great what you are doing.
A true schizophrenia recovery would be if you were active in things rather than just being free of the voices. Having “not much to do” doesn’t sound like a true recovery to me. A good ending to a book from someone who has recovered would be the job you were doing or the marriage you were in. If all you are doing is sitting around wanting to write a book you are more susceptible to the Psych Ward than you think. I remember being in that position at 41 and I relapsed and I can’t say I ever truly recovered. My book I was going to write was “Ravings of a Lunatic” which since has been taken as a title. I quit writing it when I discovered how expensive the self-publishing business was and how at odds the local publishing businesses were to my beliefs at the time. It’s harder than you think.
I dont want to sell the book. I’m publishing it as a free epub on an Internet site. But I have other hobbies. I’m currently learning how to make 2D animations and 3D models on the computer. This topic will be deleted pretty soon anyway cos it against forum rules apparently. Doesn’t matter. I will still be active in other topics.
My fear is that I will be too ill to appreciate my children as they grow up. Love to me is finding others who will accept me for who I am.
My medication helps make me stable but I also use relaxing techniques I have been taught over the years to help me when I am bad so that I do not need to be hospitalized.
Inside my head I will see bad things that are violent, voices that tell me to harm myself and severe depression.
I am married with five kids and have a support system I can rely upon. I don’t share my life with everyone. I used to live on my own and worked full time before I got married. I also graduated from college and worked on getting a masters. I am only at home because I am a stay at home mom. Once my kids are older I will work again. So I would say I have had a successful life.
@Slothlover you said you like reading? What kind of books? I read both fiction and non-fiction but my favorite genres are fantasy and science fiction. Share the names of some books you’ve read. I’ve read Game of Thrones, Wheel of Time, Dune and the entire Discworld series. I like humor a lot in my reading. That’s why Terry Pratchett’s Discworld was wonderful reading. Catherine Jinks’ Reformed Vampire Support Group was another good one. I know where you can get them for free so my book obsession doesn’t cost me anything.
If you can put the learning to a practical use and stick to your hobbies then you’ll do OK.
Pretty damn impressive acheivements @anon78876561! I went to UofT for a B.Sc in Computer Science but my problems became too severe in the last year of my program and I had to leave Canada permanently. According to my folks it doesn’t have a good healthcare system for serious problems.
I had an arranged marriage in India but my wife divorced me after a few months because I was, er, unable to perform in the bedroom. We parted on reasonably good terms. She doesn’t contact me anymore but I don’t mind.
I find it amazing that you can be a mom to 5 kids! I really wish I could have been a parent sometimes but I can accept that I’m not. Probably for the best anyway.
I will be honest it was incredibly difficult to do everything I wanted to do. But I got it done just to prove myself I could do it. Many people advised me to do otherwise but I am stubborn and don’t listen to others. I did have to take a year off from school. But I used that time to heal and get back together.
I dont really read anymore I used to but now I don’t have the concentration to read. I also now see my name repeatedly in books and it gives me alot of anxiety
I find it difficult to read too now. I cant stay on a book for more than a few mins. 20 max. But I leave the book open as a epub on my phone. Just keep coming back to it when I got nothing better to do. They take many months to finish but it’s worth it.
When I read books nowadays, I find the characters seem to think the same thoughts I do. I wonder if the authors were schizophrenics too. Ofcourse fantasy books do have a lot of crazy personas.
Maybe you could just write your memoirs. It’s very popular right now.
@Slothlover I’m trying to find ways to spend my time these days. I used to be a programmer so logic used to be my forte but I had to give that path up after I realized I would no longer be working. I’m trying to break into creativity but it’s difficult. Having a study buddy would help me greatly in staying focused. Do you have any interest in learning art using computer apps for free? We could help each other out and share creations in this forum.
What did you study in college? and work as?
I got my degree in early childhood education and almost a degree in theology.
I worked for a small religious business as a resource specialist.