I am just going to paste what I just texted to my mom, I’m currently 4 months away from finding a new job due to my current job losing the contract to a competitor.
PASTE:So I am having a hard time concentrating and keeping my thoughts organized, I’m trying not to let it bother me but it is and I am worried about how it will play into whatever my next job is, I know it’s pointless to worry but I can’t help it, I’m not at the top of my game anymore, I’ve been faking it til I make it but I dont know much longer I can successfully do that END PASTE
I have applied to jobs that I am qualified for but I don’t know how I can really keep up the act that I am thinking fine and normal, it’s been a long 2 and a half years adjusting to schizophrenia.
I don’t really know what I am expecting to hear from anyone on here but I am trying to cope as best I can with work and schizophrenia. Luckily I haven’t had a formal talk about my work performance but I feel like I am only able to do so much.
I would do disability if I could pay for my child support but I think my child support payments are about equal to what I have heard disability pays.
I am 30 which is too young to stop working but maybe I am out of my element now, I honestly can’t judge my abilities any more and I lack the quick thinking I used to have.
I will take whatever advice you guys have, maybe I will have to do less involved work but I really need the money to pay for child support.