Itās sympathy or empathy. My dad grew up poor and worked his whole life. Heās not really that nice to people, me includedā¦
He moved away and is retired. I still care and love him obviously. Schizophrenia is a hard illness to accept, deal with. He probably views me as a failure.
Currently, I am on disability and live with my step-father and mother. My step-father regrets treating me like crap over the years and has been really nice and kind to me and stepped in as the current father figure.
Iām a grown man now. Iām 35. I got sick when I was 22-23 years old.
My dad doesnāt get or understand schizophrenia.
My father never really supported me in a lot of ways especially emotionally. Heās very responsible, but lacked a lot of things when he was raising me.
I guess I experienced splitting. My mom was overly concerned and compassionate, but didnāt work. My step-father was emotionally distant or unavailable. My dad was hard on me, but Iāve accepted it. I donāt think it was that bad compared to some peopleās stories.
I guess it comes down to personal responsibility and being independent. I was told not to ask or beg for money or help.
My mom never really was proactive growing up and never did me any favors. Sheās co-dependent.
Iām not sure why I even have schizophrenia, but itās largely genetic, Iāve read. I got it from pot and never fully recovered. I think my schizophrenia is moderate. Iāve read that some people with schizophrenia think theyāre a glass of orange juice or a dog or wipe feces on their faces. Iām definitely not that bad at all.
I didnāt have the religious gene growing up. I never understood it or believed it and was drawn to academics briefly. I never graduated and it was math so it didnāt really have a direct application to my interestsā¦
I was raised on WoW and video games. I had social problems growing up. I didnāt have a lot of friends, and was isolated. I struggled fitting in my whole life. I never had a relationship (girlfriend) and was even bullied as a kid.