Why do I think about death

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It always plays on my mind.

Not just suicidal thoughts, but actual thoughts about when is this going to happen

I am not a very patient person at all

Have been up for less than 30 mins, and I have already considered taking an overdose, and sick of waking up.

The thing I have noticed is this mainly happens at weekends when I have nothing to do.

During the week I am occupied with working, but during free time I tend to think about death a lot.

Not sure if this is right or not

The intrusive thoughts have been willing me this morning to die from cancer from the cigarettes I smoke.

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Maybe make some plans for the weekend so you don’t have time on your hands. I honestly use to obsess about suicide until I started taking Rexulti. It was awful so I really feel for you. It’s such a negative head space to be in. I hope you can find some relief soon.

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What I don’t understand is that things are going pretty well at the moment, but I can still feel like this. It doesn’t make any sense.

:pensive:

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You may have unresolved depression. If you’re not happy no amount of distraction will take that away. The unhappiness will always be there waiting for you. I personally was so depressed for so long I didn’t even recognize it anymore. It wasn’t until I started taking the Cymbalta 120 mg and the depression lifted that I realized just how depressed I was. Now I feel better. But when you’re in it, suffering it’s hard to see.

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fade its normal to think death but pls dont overdo.

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I am very nearly 62 years old, and I think about death to. I wonder if I have enough time to do the things I want to do. I wonder how I will be judged after I die. I’m not religious, but I do believe that people have to account for how they have lived after they die. I wonder if I have lived a good life. The thought of death scares me, but I also look forward to it. Even if there is nothing afterwards but oblivion it might be a relief to lose the stress. Mark Twain once said, “I did not exist for billions of years before I was born, and it did not bother me. It won’t bother me to not exist for billions of more years.” In a way, I can’t conceive of not existing. I somehow believe my consciousness is something that cannot be erased. "Nothing is ever created or destroyed. It only changes form.

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Sorry to post this stuff

I have had my sleeping messed with by Abilify I think.

Literally it has been 10 days of going to bed at midnight and waking by 3am-4am

My sleep is important to me as I work a physical job and it compounds, makes me tired and grotty and agitated and my thoughts go to dark places

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I was like that for years. Was just sick of living, trying, coping and wanted to get on with it and be done. So I’d imagine my death in many different ways, elaborate plans and stuff. Just preoccupied with it.

Then one day I slowly dug myself out of it with better treatment, goals and finding reason life is worth living.

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Ä° think everybody who is with our disease think death or suicide.this is normal thoughts i think.in my case i usually think about suicide when i get health problem.then i m thinking about my working schedule and future plan about my working career.its not a big thing but it save from me pointless and shitty ideas.maybe i will be never be a chef but this plan save my days anyway

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I have the same problem – Abilify interfering with my sleep.

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I’m not sure but for me I was preoccupied with my fear of death. My family dying, my mom dying. The process of dying being painful and inescapable. I think that depression medicines took care of that quite well.

I still fear death, but I’m not preoccupied by thoughts of it.

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