Everytime I do something beneficial to me it feels like the world wants me to feel bad about it…
I use to think it was me and then I realized if it were true they fit the category of “hater” on multiple levels …
Finally I’m wondering if people are really Soo hateful and mean…maybe a big part of it is my mental illness. People cant be this bad!!!
Also…maybe it’s just that I e been taught that I’m worthless so anything that counters that native is like a threat to my belonging as a lesser…but still apart of the group as long as I don’t try to step out of the box they have imagined for me??
I think so. Maybe people have hurt you in the past and you’ve blamed yourself for them hurting you, so now you feel that you’re not worthy of anything good. They tried to steal your sense of self, but they’re going to fail when you realize this.
The fact is that you didn’t do anything wrong and you do deserve good things. You’re no less than any other person. You deserve dignity and respect, but my words mean nothing if you don’t believe it.
