For myself, I havenāt really looked forward to the prospect of being around people and having to sell, or do hard work for others. That is not to take away from those that do. It is just that in my mind, the logic doesnāt make sense for me to go and receive a paper we give value for standing around for hours selling something or find the willpower to continue rigorous physical work for other people who also receive less money for doing something a person who receives more doesnāt want to do but has done enough so to the point that they are better at managing the people doing the labor ideally having the experience and ability to do what is being managed if they have to only to do so for a person who receives more of that material paper that for managing them and so on.
Now I understand people say, āmoney makes the world go roundā but to me it really doesnāt, I mean I honestly have sometimes felt that people who work in agriculture should receive as much as those who work in the medical field considering it is a physically intensive job and essential, I mean food and health, they do go hand in hand as far as importance, granted processed food tastes unique enough to get us addicted. Really, who would choose asparagus over Layās Baked Potato chips?
So from there my mindset doesnāt find the logic to gather enough motivation to even try. I mean, there is more to it than that, I think down the road with digital currency, people might really begin to see how stupid it all looks from the perspective of a person with schizophrenia. I get that things cost money sure, but really, how many of you donāt have a television and not because you donāt want one in the U.S.? At some point surely we all have essential things. Equity vs commodity and all that which on a global view has tremendous disparity, but I think sometimes, it takes roughly 10 cents in India to produce a monthly injection that in the U.S. can be billed for upwards of $1,000 dollars to medicare or health insurances. I canāt imagine it takes more than 200 dollars to make an Iphone that sells for around 1,000 upon release and that is being generous to the cost production. People earn what? 10 dollars a day in some countries? Then, you have a person working for 15 dollars an hour buying it from someone working for 20 dollars an hour selling it for someone making ten times that paying someone 10 dollars a day to work at a factory where it costs 20 work hours to pay the equivalent of the initial worth of someone producing it at a factory that makes who knows? 100 of them a day and that too is generousā¦
My mind is just not in it.
Then there is the motivation, off meds Iām all over the place but rarely sedentary. Still, I find the idea of having to keep a faƧade of actually wanting to sell such a thing daily a stressful prospect and that is just in retail. All that being said, I do have a whole lot of respect to people who are able to day in day out hold a job, goodness knows on a bad day, Iād probably just be like, ā ā ā ā ā this, I quit.ā It has happened at least once to me.
One thing I would like to mention is that I donāt want to come across as snobby, I understand people have to work to provide, and at least in the U.S. some mental ilnness(es) deem a person disabled to the point in which we cannot functionally remain employed and so we are eligible for government assistance based on that disability here. Some people might also have family to rely on but I think some of us have had work to make it else theyād end up on the streets, Iāve lived at boarding care facilities as well as independent living facilities but I do realize those are things afforded by this country. Elsewhere, maybe people have relatives or else many of us would be homeless and on the streets.
Despite all that, I do want to find something I enjoy doing and get paid for doing it if only to feel like I fit in more in modern society. I mean telling people I havenāt been employed in years is almost as bad as informing them I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I thought about things I might enjoy, and there is not much within my grasp that I would truly enjoy, I mean working at a space observatory just isnāt a job Iād likely ever get hired for.
Still though, I think sometimes maybe something like stocking the shelves at Best Buy and putting the headphones back in the headphones section before walking around asking customers if they need any help doesnāt seem too far out of my capabilites, the thing is doing it every day for more than 4 hours doesnāt really sound promising. Thereās always Wal-Mart I guess. Truthfully though, I donāt think they want to hire a fat average dude without recent employment. Maybe if I was better looking, I seriously might have a better chance getting hired when I was fresh out of jailā¦ but thenā¦ Iām competing with a bunch of 20 something year olds that worked at Jack in the Box for 4 yearsā¦ I donāt mean that makes them any less, I mean realistically, if I were the person hiring, I definitely would rather go with the person who jas proven they will show up for more than 3 weeks without any problems.
All that being said, please feel free to share what keeps you from work, or keeps you going when it comes to working!
Maybe I just dug the hole deeper anyway, I think you get what I meant. Yes so, no lacky de confdns! Now moving, on, yeahā¦ work, manā¦ 