Second time I was in love it was with a girl that was a erotomanic, she would send me all kind of signals that she was in love with me yet she would not come out saying she liked/loved me. Knowing she was erotomanic, that didn’t end well on my end, wish I would’ve backed down earlier instead of giving her chances. Eventually I ended up ■■■■■■ up/psychotic for a really long period of time. (And I don’t really know what you mean with erotomania, but erotomania is not love, it’s a “sickening” behavior)
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Did the psychosis make “sense”? For me it seems like it makes sense in some way, like the voices are a “spiritual portrayal” of who they are in the real world. Like if their personalities are bad than the voices would be bad.
Psychosis made sense only to me at the time.
But the reality is very different.
Looking back it makes no sense what so ever.
It’s best to follow our doctors orders and take our meds.
Delusional thinking is tricky.
Same here. Thinking of a old loved one triggers symptoms with me too. What really helps and stops voices completely if I stop “talking/thinking/obsessing” to the imaginary them.
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I somewhat can relate but I learned my lesson. When I was in a really depressive/psychotic mood I contacted my first love, (who actually destroyed me and the love we had for each other), wanting to talk it out what happened in the past. Couple of days later I woke up with a “message/voice” that really put my feet back to the ground and I decided never ever to contact her again despite my good intentions. I think you’re more rational than your ex in this case.
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Going to remember that when I’m in love again.
I’m “glad” people can relate but the big question remains (apart @Wendy) whom else is able to have healthy relationship that suffers from “love psychosis”?
I suffer from erotomania. I have a voice in my head who claims to be my wife and who call’s herself “Vanessa”. I’ve never really known a Vanessa other than a few girls I went to high school with who have that name. The voice doesn’t sound familiar but apparently I may meet her one day if I’m not careful. I almost was in love with her years ago but I have come to realize what this really is over the last year. It can be very annoying and I have finally started to distance myself from this voice but she can be very intrusive. It’s almost like I can’t move past her and it’s hard to be with someone who isn’t her. It’s very troubling. However, I’ve heard less and less from her recently.
The more you distance yourself from that voice, the less she can trick you. It’s the same for me though, but the women I was in love with really existed. My advice would be ignore her (the voice in your head) to death, that way your symptoms would subside 
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I had something similar to @cherie with two girls the first time with a girl I didn’t know and the other time I knew her quite well. I still feel painful humiliation to this day. I don’t think it was erotomania, more just my delusions telling me we were meant to be together. And I was probably slipping into psychosis before I fell ‘in love’ not the other way round. So I think the love could be a result of the psychosis. But I have been in a relationship while I was schizophrenic, though they are few and far between.
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I had a reverse experience too I messaged my ex so many times, thinking we were in love when I had my first psychotic break, I thought the person on my phone was preventing me from speaking to him so I even called him from a friends phone frantically. He hung up. I think it was really horrifying for him. I was fine with us not talking before as well. Really embaressing after I slowly realized.
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I actually called a girl that “liked me” in high school who I didn’t have the guts to ask out after my first psychotic break. I thought we had a telepathic connection and that I was talking to her through my mind. She was dating a friend at the time and I asked her what she was doing the first phone call which she replied she was going to see her BF. I phoned her again a day or two later and she gave the exact same carbon copy response. I got the hint the second time and never called or saw her again. Years later I realized what was happening wasn’t real which made it fairly embarrassing. I never contacted or heard from that friend since then as well. In fact, I cut off all communication with all of my high school friends around that time, kinda sad really. This all happened about a month or two after high school.
Im finding this very interesting. I had an episode when I was young and it had to do with abandonment. I’m wondering how much love plays a role in experiencing psychotic breaks. Has anybody had a waking dream, hallucinations of doing something, going somewhere or seeing someone that feels real but you “wake up” from?
I really like this subject.
Here’s how it worked for me. When I was a spiritual person, it meant that not all of my cards were on the table. On one hand I had a strong sense of morality, but on the hand it meant I was not living 100% down to earth.
Spirituality implies that I’m a telepath. This was bad, and here’s why. I gal that that I was dating for five years wasn’t going to get past a certain point with me nor I with her simply because scz + spirituality is dangerous for both me and for her.
The brain is not a telepathic organ. If it were in that past 10,000 years, it would have already made people rich. Telepathy is worth mega money in reality. That’s being realistic about it, but no one has ever been made mega rich because of telepathy, so obviously 10,000 years and well over a trillion lives is enough example to convince me that it does not exist.
I never trust my mind 100%. I verify what it has told me before I jump to conclusions because it lies about what is around me all of the time. That’s why we have a special name called scz first of all, but the mind lies to everyone. Everyone should be taught about these things first thing in life rather than that their minds are somehow telepathic which is also a lie that makes people “sick.”
When I dropped the spirituality, I dropped the telepathy beliefs. I studied the mind hard, and I got serious about redefining what this brain and mind thing really was. No more lies. 
Now that I’m much better my girlfriend is long gone. It was smart for her to leave, and it was helpful to me that she left because it gave me a chance to get things figured out like I mentioned.
The biggest phobia I had of non-spiritual, total honesty about my mind, my brain, and what I am was immortality. All of the lying telepathy schools that ever existed suggest there is infinite mortality, and you’re buying your seat here in your life. As soon as I would remember that, I would never give up on my “make believe.” I had to understand logic first and then understand how governments for thousands of years have created hoaxes and controlled information to control the masses, and finally it came out that the ancient telepathy fantasy that I was pretending was real all of my life was actually a quasi military action by an ancient government to prevent the rebellion from a nation they conquered first, and to prevent rebellion from their slaves later on.
The lie was about magic, and it indeed crippled me. Once I got the logic, and I solved the lie, I then solved what I am, and that makes me a competant dater.
It really came down to I’m going to live with my head in the clouds my whole life while never getting to be successfully with any people, or I’m going to live down to earth with these people right here alive too.
I’m a moral person. What I have realized is that I don’t need to believe that in a telepathic, sci fi fantasy universe to be a moral person. I don’t need to pretend to talk to anyone in my mind who is not only there because only I am in my mind in order to get something done right, or thank pretend beings for getting something done right. This whole concept of being watched all of the time by telepathic beings that I was taught was real as a child is just not necessary, and when it all falls down, and I can see it is not anything real as in cause and effect, that is the most freeing moment from the mind shackles of almost all of my scz.
In the movie called the Giver the philosopher tells the young person to not take the shots that the community makes everyone take, so that they can’t see color, feel feelings etc. That’s when all of the colors, feelings, and thoughts all showered down. To that person this sense of mind was a phantasmagorical thing greater than any ancient sci fi fantasies could have ever lied to anyone about.
The reality is far more amazing that the sci fi fantasies that we are told to believe which always include telepathy. All of the smartest, most successful people know that, and they know that everyone else that thinks they are telepathic are crippled by that lie.
In the movie when the lie was dropped, then suddenly the loving relationship began, and it twas powerful.
I know it sounds crazy to a lot of people, too many in fact, but try to figure out your life, yourself, and your world without the telepathy lies we were taught when we were kids, and figure out how to live without that make believe. What you will find over the course of the first year in reality is that you can suddenly understand people much, much better. That’s what you need in order to be a relationship person.
Being a relationship person is being a kind of expert. Sociality is expertise. It takes practice. It takes excuses and things that bring people together. You have to be clever enough to keep people coming back, and it can’t be just one person or one kind of person. What you’re looking for are all of the words that people say not just good words or bad words, not just true words or lies, and not just fool’s words or expert’s words. Look for all words from all people homeless or not, bad life or good life, mad or happy, etc etc etc. And don’t forget how to measure your mind logically while you do it, so you can know the difference between their fallacies and not.
When you are a social expert, you are very conscious of your own mind in a realistic way not any fallacies such as the telepathy trick we were taught as kids. Remember the most socially expert people are all very, very conscious of their own minds, and that is what always brings them back to each other again and again. It’s the highest sense you can get in life, and when you are social with other people, you allow that to happen for other people.
But don’t be fooled by the fantasy sci fi hoaxes that say that infinite life and telepathy non-sense. You’ll never get to being this kind of conscious of your mind in very intricate and expert ways enough that you are expert about other people’s minds enough to have a great relationship and social life…if you believe in those things. You have to know what your mind is and what it really isn’t at all times. You have to know that the room is all in your mind, and what’s really outside of your mind is nothing like what’s in your mind.
Get the facts, the philosophy, the logic, practice talking and getting all of the words from all of the kinds of people high and low, and you’re on your way to becoming a social expert, and…
…that is what being a relationship mechanic is all about. If you can’t fix it, you can’t keep it. Get it?