My pdoc thinks that I have those somatics and the inability to act mostly because of my paranoia… but my meds are not working well on it, I tried every ap here on the market… I stuck with the zyprexa though, but I have this tremendous paranoia and anxiety… ok, I also have to mention, that I dont think sanely too, so it’s a double problem and it doesn’t help the paranoia… I’ve slept too much the last night, but I had such a bad and painful paranoia this evening, that I wanted to die… in fact, it starts every evening with lowering in my energy, numbness, and then I start to be afraid of the people and I worry about the tasks to be done,related to going outside and if this state can happen to me outside…
Believe me, pals, this night, it wasn’t human anymore… I wanted to howl by fear and from the fact, that I couldn’t stand on my feet by it… my mind is disabled then, yeap…
Are there chances, that with the time and the zyprexa, this can be relieved? One of my ex pdocs believed in years for me on zyprexa… not in days or months to feel better… I do my efforts… but every evening, I get this low energy, my psychosomatic terrible pains and the paranoia and the worrying… and i am all alone…
But who else is a bit disabled physically too because of his sz? Does it make suffer your body at your worst? 
Terrible… now I am calmer, less pains but I fear the tomorrow evening etc…
Idk about you, but I still cant control my mind, who causes this…
I was told I had conversion disorder like you’re describing but my current drs dont believe that. I got brain lesions and lost the right side of my body plus my face drooped on the right side. I needed physical and occupational therapies, plus I had to work with a speech language pathologist and learn to swallow again. My current drs think it was a mild stroke. It took me a really long time to regain what I lost. I still struggle with some things but not all
Oh, I am sorry pianogal… you remind me, that my doc told me that I have a conversion disorder yeap… but I guess, the reason of it here is my screwed up mind 
I am really not recovered on my mind,so the body follows… but do you think, that i should endure the pain at its worst and continue to work on my mind? Maybe with its healing, i will stop suffer physically too,isn’t it??
What was like your physical difficulties if you want to tell me? It wasn’t the sz, but brain lesions? I am sorry again…
Pals, do you think that this conversion body thing will stop, once I get better in my mind??? Pff, it’s very painful sometimes 
i was physically disabled befored sz,but now im more disabled.
I often wonder how is to have a sz without that it affects the body in any way… is it possible even? 
I have sz friends who has nothing physically but mine is very strong affecting on my body… I am literally in pain physically…
Oulabi, I’ll hope the best for you 
The drs knew I had brain lesions, but said it was impossible for me to have had a stroke or anything because I have mental illness. I think if you do in fact have conversion disorder it can be overcome through therapy
yeah thank you,it effects us differently i think.i have always had a confused mind so naturally im always like that.
Yeah, me too… very bad mind, numb sometimes, some other times - way too paranoid… I start to believe that our body pains are because of our bad minds… but it’s hard to heal this I find too…
and the medication is good but its bad in a way that it suppresses emotions.i have been taking this medication for a long time that i dont know who i am anymore.and the stigma that comes with it all.its very hard life.anyways…
In my case, I had suppressed emotions even before the meds… my sz is paranoid, but with lots of negative symptoms too… idk what to do when I cant even move, walk… my brain is working as hell even then, no peace, just worrying, paranoid and desperate thoughts I wonder if I’ll get better in my mind, my body will follow? What do you think? If you are not so fearfull, it’s a lot already… me, I shake all inside of me by fear every evening… I cant see people in this state nope, I risk to scare them and myself…
I always feel the same. I feel that I scare people and that I am scared of them. I think its because I have no emotions and they do.
Me, I just risk to yell by fear or even faint by paranoia… I dont want to see me like this… but maybe it’s our mistake…but yeap, it’s not so ok either…
Me, I dont care so much as before that I dont have emotions, so I go out now with my poker face lol… but I have problems with this paranoia now and even the inability to walk…
Aziz, when you are scared, do you feel it in your body too??
Not when my meds are working. I feel ppl touching me and insects walking and biting on my body when unmedicated. And yes I get very scared and paranoid. I once thought I was missing organs because I got kidnapped and put to sleep involuntarily, they stole my organs.
Mine dont work a lot on my paranoia… and I tried 11 aps for ten years… I am desperate to have to fight this alone… the docs said that they cant help me more…
Anyway, maybe the zyprexa will work after years as thought it my ex pdoc… but I think, that she was lying on this a bit…
If Clozapine didn’t work really they can’t do anything better. Are you better with or without meds? Do meds at least help a bit?
Just a bit. But I have my hellish moments every evening… they dont work at all in those evenings. But sometimes in the day, its bearable because of the meds. But I am never sane and healthy, this - never yet and i am desperate cause i find myself sick since a kiddo… i had a very cruel father who was beating till death my sister and my mother, that’s all…
Sorry that this happened to you. I hope you feel better soon.