I’m not panicking, but my sense of self is very weak right now and I feel like I might dissolve into thin air at any moment. I don’t identify with myself, my first person perspective has grown dim. But part of me also is inclined to believe that this awareness of my fundamental fakeness constitutes a genuine spiritual breakthrough. Can you relate to this? Could this experience just be normal depersonalisation?
When I look into the mirror I don’t recognize myself. Is that the same type of thing?
That’s what I was wondering. I’m always talking about self disturbance which is typically associated with sz spectrum disorders, but I’m not sure of anything anymore. Nothing is demonstrably real.