Where you at this point?

i am hiding myself from others. i try to look more normal as possible but i am hiding even from neighbours. where you at this point panicked and paranoid? it sucksā€¦ i am afraid itll never go away,i wanna cry, i feel bad,like a bad person :cry:
and alos,when there is violence out there most of people are lauphing,me i become afraidā€¦