Really my first hospitalization was July 1st of 2010
I’ve gotten better, I’ve gotten worse, better and worse, again, now I’ve been getting better since the start of 2016.
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My first psychotic episode happened around 33 with standard paranoid sz symptoms but I managed thru without any medicine. Then at 35 I started hallucinating and the rest is history.
I had a number of manic and depressed episodes going back to childhood resulting in 5 hospitalizations. I have never been hospitalized for my hallucinations or delusions
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I began having delusions in February 2011 i think. Later hosapitalized at my parents request/demand and in 2012 diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. edit: after delusions i started hearing voices
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I had a delusion where I was a prophet of God at age 12 4 years ago
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You’re only 16 years old?
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I heard a voice that said knife! knife! when I was 21 in 2010 and I argued with it saying no!, it was too much like my cousin’s murder. She was stabbed to death by her husband after serving him divorce papers. I had a delusion where I thought my Uncle wanted to kill me when I was going to visit him. I had delusions where people in the basement were going to kill me and I thought people in cars were going to shoot me. But in April 2011(22_ I heard a voice that said you’re life is not worth living and you should kill yourself with the gun in the closet. I told my mom and I went to the er and they sent to me the best inpatient psychiatric hospital(in my perspective). I had the best room mate ever. I was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia.
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1992 to be exact although I didn’t ask for help until the next year. I heard strange things for years before that although I can’t tell if they were real or not.
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@Anna
My counselor and psychiatrist thought I was sexually abused and not talking about it. It took me a long time to convince them that I was traumatized by schizophrenia as a child, not anything else!
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Yeah I really broke though last year
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Back in 2016, I think like many I was 20 years old 
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Oh my gosh same! So many therapists were convinced I was sexually abused and I’m like well I did have hallucinations of it and they’re like no REAL sexual abuse you have all the symptoms and I’m like no.
They don’t realize what we experience in our illness is real to us and has real impact.
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gor psychosis at 24 in year 2000 and then got sz in 2002 at 26
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Yep! I also apologized for having an affair when I was 17 and nothing was actually happening. All in my head.
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How do you deal? Sexuality is hard for me. (I’m married and have an awesome husband.) But for real, I’m still traumatized even though nothing happened. Have you addressed it in therapy? What have you done?
Basically I have been doing trauma and sexual abuse therapy. I was finally able to find a therapist who was willing to treat it like real abuse. It has been hugely helpful to me. Sexuality is incredibly hard for me it’s been an ongoing battle. I post about it on here from time to time.
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In dezember 2013, I was 26 years old.
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I first had psychosis was when I was sixteen. I was convinced that this boy I liked wanted me to come and meet him and his friends. I tried to go out but his friends seemed to be laughing at me and I could never find him. I felt depressed like I had failed and it was all my fault. That’s gone away, but I still have voices harassing me for something that I supposedly did wrong. What that is, I don’t know. I was diagnosed in Jan. 2006.
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Thank you for sharing your story @Anna. I’m so glad you found a therapist who understands and values you and what you’ve been through.
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It could have been since I was 14 as the voices began then but only occasionally
Properly started when I was 18 at the end of 2002
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I had my first symptoms when I was 7 years old.
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