I have two.
From my first episode back in 2012-2013. I thought people were gonna burn me alive in a wicker man for some reason and this song was talking about burning me. Glad that’s over
Hey yellow diamond. It’s really strange but I found that accepting that I’m sad actually helps me feel okay. I’m still sad but suppressing it would have made me feel worse.
It is okay to be sad sometimes.
Like delusions where you control the weather?
I actually thought my playlist was being manipulated by the voices to send me messages, i actually thought satan put this song on my shuffle to communicate with me.
I had the same thing, where the youtube algorithm and spotify were conspiring to send me messages. I still think some of it might be true but idk
Feeling like sometimes my state of mood has an influence on the weather.
Did you get that that too?
Sometimes I still get caught in that delusion but I don’t know… You see? I still feel maybe sometimes my mood has an influence, amongst everyone else’s mood too but sometimes I feel my mood has a quite big influence
But other times it may be someone else who has a more big influence.
I wish I could have children. Or a child.
But I don’t know if it is the right decision.
Anyone feel the same?
Yeah i want kids, but i worry about them having to go through what i have been through, though . But having kids would be fun, and it would give my life a purpose and meaning it doesn’t have right now.
I also thought i could control the weather through feelings/moods/willpower. Honestly looking back at it, i think i was always schizo in some form or another.
My life has purpose now but I feel it may strengthen my purpose.
The world’s a mess to some extent atm thou so I feel in one respect is it fair to bring a kid to this world? Not just on the kid but on me too
Oh okay I think maybe quite a few sz thought so LOL.
But it is an annoying delusion cos I always look out for major weather on the news seeing if it connects to my mood. It is so weird of me! And just potentially very schizophrenic and grandiose
Maybe you are a mythological weather goddess or something lol. Anything is possible i guess…
But yeah i thought that i could bring in storms if i focused on a certain feeling i was having. More than likely i was just feeling a certain way because of the weather. Still it is kind of a cool power fantasy to have
That’s a clever point that I never thought of before.
Like how the moon can have an affect on things. I think
Thankyou for sharing. It makes me a bit more open minded.
Lol yep for sure.