Whats the worse thought you had during psychosis?

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I almost swallowed a big bottle of acid thats used to unclog drains but instead I went with the safer route and swallowed a whole bottle of Tylenol. Still ended up in the emergency and my liver almost stopped working Dr said. But at least I am still alive.

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I don’t know if it’s the worst but one I almost acted on that could have been bad was I almost turned myself into the police because I thought I had killed someone and forgot.

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When I was psychotic I called the cops and told them that I am Jesus and that they should protect me from the mafia as they will try to kill me.

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I accused a bunch of people of horrific crimes. Filed a police report and everything. One person’s car got towed as a result. Terrible, terrible times. I keep having flashbacks to that period … I don’t know when they will stop.

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That I’d be doing everyone a huge favor if I killed my ex husband, my son and myself. Just take out the whole family. Years ago, while depressed, I thought this often. Thank gosh I never went through with it.

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I thought people were trying to make me commit suicide. I bought a .22 auto and took off to Texas, but I ran into the same problem there. I wasn’t going to walk into a crowd and open up with that little gun, but if someone had walked up behind me during the nighttime I might have turned around and shot them. I’m glad those days are over.

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That I was worthless and a piece of ■■■■. Mind you that psychotic depression causes extremely depressing delusions.

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I didn’t have any about killing anyone ever.

Even though my psychosis was deep.

I had a few bad ones. Some of which I sort of acted on. They were not good. That’s all I’m going to say about that :no_mouth:

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That I wanted to expose my ‘natural self’ to the world like Adam and Eve. Ie. nude.

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I imagined that my neighbour had fought during the war in Afghanistan and was suffering from PTSD. I decided to donate all my antipsychotic medication to him, leaving it on his front doorstep. It got me kicked out of my unit complex.

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There was a demon living in my shotgun and it wanted me to shoot myself through the skull with it. I remember just lying in bed and staring at my 12-gauge with absolute fear, hoping that i wouldnt do it.

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so many

  1. violence punched a nurse several times on order
  2. self violence - delusional cutting
  3. that a bisexual girl wanted me to touch her and i tried . it was assault
  4. that i was racist . this was long term head screw
  5. that i should run away and people told me to
  6. that i should kill myself
  7. that i should drink water faster than my body could process it (psychogenic polydipsia)
  8. that i was asked to be the mother of the second coming of Christ.
  9. that i had been spiked and drugs were the solution to life i bought crack and a crack pipe and wrapped it like a present for a recovering crack addict
    et cetera

these were thoughts originally but actions i think are worse than any thought

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Did you get rid of the shotgun??

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I thought that the emotional pain I suffered would last for eternity. I was lying in bed and literally saw this eternal pain for my eyes and i wouldn’t be able to stop it even if i committed suicide.

Then i rang the bell, a nurse came to my room with a benzo. Half an hour later I knew that feelings are always temporary.

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Yeah i sold it to someone who doesnt have sz

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Ive been in the same place, except ive never had the benefit of being in a hospital.

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I watched everyone of my pets die when I was a child. I was 4 and we had 8 cats. Each of the instances was a psychosis but they all happened in real life after the fact as well.

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I thought a large group conspired against me by wrongfully put evidences that I killed a prostitute. I called the the cops and told them they put a cadaver in my trunk. The police came and took samples for analysis in the car. That was my first psychosis so the cops took it seriously at first. I ended up in the hospital. After that i kept calling the cops to know how the investigation was going. The feeling was horrible. I thought i was going to be wrongfully arrested.

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