This is what they wrote in my report, do you think in light of what they wrote about me it’s unlikely I have faked my illness?
''The Schizoaffective Disorder part of the diagnosis has been characterised by paranoid and grandiose delusions, auditory hallucinations, disturbance of sleep pattern, irritability and periods of extremely elevated mood followed by periods of depressed mood to the extent that he wished to harm himself. The disorder is chronic and relapsing.
Bobbilly was recalled to hospital under his Community Treatment Order (CTO) following being driven by persecutory delusions beliefs to attempt to remove a microchip out his armpit which had been planted by doctors to monitor him’’
I’m being forced to take monthly Invega 50mg injection because I’m on a community treatment order. I think my mental health team/social worker have secret folders on me, I have requested everything from social work reports, psychiatric reports. hospital reports. I think they are withholding information and only giving me the bits they think will lesson my anxieties. I have spent months scrutinising the reports they have sent me which I believe are fake. There is something that they don’t want me to read. I believe they are conspiring against me. I’m sure off it! I don’t know why but I need to read the reports they won’t send me but every time I ask for the reports they says they have sent me everything.
From what you’ve posted, sounds to me like they’ve put everything pertinent about your condition into a couple of paragraphs. No need to hide anything.
You’re not the only person here to suffer Targeted Individual delusions. I thought I was targetted by E.T. Some here think it’s the government. One fellow thinks the police are after him. In your case it’s doctors, which I’m sure is difficult as they will be your primary resource for recovering from these delusions.
Please accept your treatment and all therapy offered. It has the potential to drastically improve your quality of life if you allow it to.
I have been reading about Targeted Individual, first time I have heard off it. I don’t think it fits me because it’s only my mental health team (mainly pdoc and nurse who are conspiring against me. They are writing non-factual reports on me making me out to be some crazy person.
News flash: If you are trying to dig imaginary tracking technology out of your body, you’re a crazy person. And you’re hearing this from someone who tried to do the same thing.
Something else to consider… The longer you resist treatment, the worse your prognosis gets. Work with your treatment providers while you’re still young and you could have a great future. Fight them into your fifties, and, well, expect whatever “life” you have left at that point to suck the big one.
Your average publicly funded health system is flat ass broke. They have ZERO financial incentive to track and imprison you. And, frankly, you’re just not that important.
I have tried very hard to work with my team, I’ve done the denial, grief, acceptance thing I’ve read about online but can’t get passed the thoughts I have nothing wrong with me and I’m some kind of fraud. I’m on medication but I still feel this way so I don’t think it’s down to psychosis. There really is a problem with my pdoc, social worker, nurse harassing me. I know they are having a good laugh about it and me.
its been one year. I am still taking the shot but am still convinced they have secret folders on me. I think this is more then a delusion. This is gut instant and something his making me feel like this. Something big but unbeknown to me at the moment.
@bobbilly In the US, psychiatric doctors and mental health counselors have the right to withhold anything in your chart for you that by reading it could cause harm to you. If they’re withholding information, it’s to help keep you from having a mental breakdown. I think if you’re on a community order for treatment that they’re doing the right thing because you’re fragile right now.
SsJust tired of pdocs being soft. I think they need to be a little more forceful. For instance, when somebody calls me crazy it really makes me think I’m crazy. That helps bring me come out of delusions. If I tell you you’re stupid for believing this delusion it probably stings. The thing is that the feeling of being stupid may override delusions. All I’m saying is your delusions are pretty stupid. Only a real low iq person would believe them. You’re smarter than this bob billy. Atleast I think so…
I don’t believe you. Plenty of posts(mine) come off as more stupid. Your delusions are stupid. It’s been a year and you still believe the same thing. For the sake of your life it’s time to try a different approach.
If somebody keeps having thoughts about secret folders they are keeping for years and is taking antipsychotics does that mean its real and not psychosis?
