It could just mean the AP doesn’t work fully on your delusions. Are you on the highest dose of Paliperidone? I can’t remember the dosage levels.
No I’m on nearly the lowest does. I don’t think I’m psychotic! I have always thought my care team have secret folders and is hiding information from me. I don’t think that is psychosis. This is eating me up because I really won’t to know what they have on me? I am scared to admit that their is a conspiracy against me and that I’m a ‘‘case study’’ that they are monitoring because this gives them amino to make me sound paranoid. I just really wish somebody would take me seriously and look into my case and uncover their conspiracy against me.
Saying he has a low IQ because of a delusion is very insulting. What the ■■■■. And he has no evidence to back up his claims.
I sometimes think I have or had microchips or something but I seem to not care anymore.
With regards to secret paperwork, who cares, Billy? If they do, does it really affect you? They’re just people. Maybe it’s different where you’re from. But in the US, I don’t care what a doctor thinks of me. They’re not infallible. They’re just a worker with some sense of prestige and entitlement. I don’t put doctors on a pedestal and neither should you.
I think you’re pretty smart and I’m certain you don’t have a microchip.
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Might want to up it. It could help you. Maybe different meds might be better. Can you get a new doctor or something?
I don’t think that but I understand the constant questioning , and even further on from that disbelief that one is ill . The truth is though a pdoc doesn’t have you under treatment for years if you’re a fake/don’t have some form of illness. Services are stretched and even people who are quite ill get short shrift from the system. The fact you’re on a CTO,living in supported accommodation and getting the level of support you do points to your illness being real.
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I’m certain they say I have a mental illness to monitor me because I’m a case study. They have made me confused, I’m certain they have done this by purpose. I’m really confused.
Firemonkey I want to say I really respect your advice you have gave me over this past year! I find myself thinking have I really got something wrong with me in light of all the support I get? I know I’m very supported. All the things I have done trying to the microchips out and the obsessive thinking but I still 90% think I have nothing wrong with me and I have somehow faked it without knowing. I am certain my care team in monitoring me on here.
How were you coping/functioning before you came under learning disability/mental health services and got the support you’re getting? I’m guessing none too well. That should tell you a lot.
I lived in a bungalow without any support since I fallen out with my foster parents, My bungalow was a mess and everybody used to take advanced of me. My friend used to comply come every tuesday when I got my benefits so we used to get very drunk then I wouldn’t see him until the next Tuesday, I also let him cut my arm for a dare when we was drunk.
That sounds delusional. If they wanted you to be a case study, they’d tell you about it.
Which suggests you weren’t coping well and needed help and support. Would you have been like that if you were well?
Well it’s a pretty darn good case study with all those benefits. I think I’m getting a raw deal over here…jk.
In all seriousness, I think you’re misunderstanding what a case study is and does. What you’re thinking about would be highly illegal and unethical. It would be some sort of black program/project…I’ll stop there. The odds that you are in one are very, very, very unlikely. So you are lucky, in my opinion.
You are blessed. You get to use the internet, you have benefits, and have a considerable amount of freedom.
The microchip thing is a delusion. Have you had a CT/MRI scan of the so-called object? Probably not. If you’re really concerned about things, I would get a second opinion or talk to your family about things.
The key, in my opinion, is to take your medication and try to move on from this delusion. It’s not healthy. The odds are really, really unlikely you have one.
Having an intellectual disability on top of a mental illness just makes things more difficult. I think you are smart. You’d have to be to come up with those things. Its just how you go about it.
I challenge you to think logically and critically about things. There’s no evidence for any of your thoughts/delusions. Have you tried Socratic questioning? Before that, I think you’re very first step is to get stable.
In regards to being viewed as a faker. It’s okay. It’s the paranoia man. They’re cutting back benefits everywhere and it’s normal to have those feelings, regardless.
Good luck and stay strong.
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I booked a flight to Mumbai this December to find a hospital and have a MRI scan to check for microchips. They are unwilling to give me one here in England, they say it will encourage the delusion. I don’t think I can go? I will lose £660.00 if I can’t on flights. To get travel insurance if a doctor advices me I can’t to travel I can’t get travel insurance. I could go without it. I am determined though but I have a appointee (they look after my money because they say I haven’t got capacity) and they will not release my money to me if they have objections from pdoc/care team. I have thoroughly looked into this.
I feel like I’m encouraging your delusion unknowingly. I’m sorry if I did. Can’t you just pay cash for an MRI or get a second opinion? I think that’s more reasonable.
Here they won’t give me a MRI scan without a referral from a consultant.
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I biggest wish is that a major news outlets takes on my case.