What’s your daily experience like living with this disease? What are the parts of you that haven’t succumbed to it? What are the sensations in your body like? What does it feel like to be you?
Daily experience? Wake up at some point. Go to my desk, smoke, go to bathroom and wake up and then set up breakfast. The rest is sat at the desk listening to music and studying or listening to music and social media or listen to music and read.
It’s miserable from the outside but it’s purposeful for me. It means this is the education I couldn’t have whilst 17 - 28 when schizophrenia took over my life.
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I do different things everyday depending on how opportunities present themselves. I do have a morning routine. Coffee, breakfast, news. Then I’m off to the races.
I feel like I have man flu right now. Actually took a day off work sick. Otherwise, I’m just me. I work. I do chores. I spend time playing each day.
I sleep for hours and hours. Then I wake up, make breakfast. What motivates me during “morning” is getting my first cup of coffee.
I lie down on the couch and drink my coffee.
Then I check what’s on eBay, different selling sites for used electronics and so on.
Then I listen to music and mindlessly surf the web.
Throughout the day I feel like I’m sick because of anxiety and negative thought patterns. I have tried to figure out the root cause of this evil and fight it but to no avail. It’s there and it’s messing with me.
I browse this forum from time to time. Reading what everyone does makes me happy.
Since I got I’ll with psychotic delusions it feels as if I shattered. Like a glass that breaks. This is the sensation I have in my brain. It feels as if my brain broke, I can feel the broken parts in my brain. Like my brain is cracked. And it’s truly annoying.
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Honestly I feel amazing.
That’s why I have only had a handful or two moments of feeling like myself my whole life because everyone wants to feel like me be to feel really awesome.
Unfortunately they try taking ones reals eyes , wings , arms , spirit , tentacles , and who one is from one so they feel like me and my real bod suffers and gets treated bad n disrespected etc .
Identity theft in nature n etc
My bod doesn’t feel good n suffers because my real eyes n etc aren’t “at home in real bod)
This illness makes me feel like a prophet of hypocrisy and paradox. I think deep until I reach total hypocrisy. I feel deep until I reach total paradox.
Constantly thinking. insecure, doubtful, avoidant, clever but stupid, anxious, imposter syndrome, internet and more internet, lots of coffee, complicated, failure,
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I feel weird. I mean who am I?
Possessed by 3 of the last torment abhorrent grinning dev*ls. on top of me as vile cartoons of fat white adult, or small boy. Nefarious farce, the farce is heavens part. Every 6 months blow my mind while I lay to sleep. Don’t help me , say its going away in my 40th year, I’m not convinced it’s been a decade full of tricks. Lasciviousness. Tactile of the toughest terrorists, sarcastic 1960’s horror movie not slap stick, not fantasy. Supernatural deviltry wwii hate of arrogant, devil’s offsprings offspring spawns offsprings sperm. & they’re in the military.
lol im used to it it’s a living hell daily hallucinatory insanity
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