I watched the whole first season of Rick and Morty, the strange plots and images really messed me up and made my brain go wild. Then I was watching creepy Off Air videos on Adult Swim youtube channel. One song in my rotation was Do it to Ya by Yg, I was hearing secret messages in the video.
I remember when I first got my psychotic episode in 2011 the TV all seemed weird to me. Secret messages, I thought the world was coming to an end, that everything on tv was a result of my actions. When I was watching a football game the teams that were playing spelt ââDUN U ⊠RANââ at the top of he screen (Dundee United and Rangers here in Scotland) but my paranoia made me read this as I DONE YOU AND RANâŠI thought I got beat up by thugs and then they ran after itâŠcrazy thoughts. I also thought that all famous people were going through a sort of âshuffling re orderâ in which the bad tv stars were taken away and the good ones were kept. One example was they were talking about Balotelli leaving man city and I thought that he was leaving to be executed for his bad behaviour!
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I just remember a song when I was in the hospital it went like âwave after wave, wave after wave, slowly drifting, drifting awayâ. There was another one that I thought I heard playing whenever this one guy I thought was hitting on me. I think I hallucinated that.
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last time I was kinda pyschotic I was listening to this,
This song reminds me of my psychosis
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I associate my psychosis with old fashioned printed media.
Ideally we would have a wall of videos and songs which people associate with psychosis.
I shared this song before but this one I listened just shortly into when my psychosis was beginning and the song itself fits the mood, too.
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Iâm actually listening to this, see if it reminds me of psychosis.
Oh dang, really?
Got a similar mind thing going on here.
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I had bad idea of reference so it was papers/tv/movies. I still remember Bruce Willis giving me advice in one of his moviesâŠit was pretty freaky! Everything fed my delusions. There was no escaping that!
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this is a crazy free jazz avant garde song by captain beefheart. my psychosis is like free jazz impromptu, with infinite variations.
What about those sz simulators? 
I had major music-related delusions involving my 2 favourite bands at the time, Led Zeppelin and Pearl Jam. I had the delusion that Jimmy Page was my ârealâ father and I even went to the local Hilton to look for him. For the latter, I was reading a lot of PJs lyrics at the university on the internet, not just the 3 studio albums they had released up to that point, but their b-sides and rarities as well. A lot of those I hadnât heard. I thought some of the lyrics were about me and the girl I was chasing whose voice I thought was in my head. Crazy!
I had extreme and global ideas of reference revolving around the media/tv/radio/internet/newspapers so everything was profoundly meaningful for me.
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I even remember I was in the TV room in the psych ward for a brief moment and a soap opera was on and I thought the scene I was watching was about me as well!
I associate this song with my illness.
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I love that song!!! 10
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as close as it gets
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A badly interpreted version of Bess you is my woman now, by Diana Damrau and Nicolas Testé (You can find it on youtube).
Last year, when I had my worst psychotic breakdown I thought they could see me through the screen and were making fun of me telepathically with the rest of the people who found themselves in the theater. (I was also in the theater the day this song was performed but the psychotic breakdown came when I watched the video).
I rewatched that video many times over-analyzing it in order to figure out what was going on. I also asked questions to see if they made a non-verbal sign to let me know the answer to my questions.
A few weeks after having psychotic experiences with videos and TV I was hospitalized.
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