I have pretty good insight into my illness, and the medication deals with my thought disorder, hallucinations and mostly my delusions. I have stable periods of about 6 months max at a time before I need to have medication adjustments
Life is very difficult as I have to work, and have no way of escaping it. If anything the stress that leads to the crippling anxiety is by far my biggest problem. I feel like I have OCD or something with the way I deal with interactions with other people as I can obsess over things and make myself worse.
My psychosis is manageable, and now I make lots of noise to the mental health team when I notice sleep being disrupted, and having things like suicidal thoughts. They’re pretty slow, but I seem to get access to PRN these days quite quick.
The only main thing my treatment cannot seem to solve is paranoia that induces my anxiety. It’s something that really gets to me all the time, and I only feel safe from it when I can isolate myself from other people and stay safe in my flat.
Overall I think my medicated life is an acceptable one given how ill I can get, but nothing is by any means perfect.
I could have got housing benefits and lived in a council flat when I got diagnosed, but after waiting so long for it to come through I gave up and started working