Hello, couple days ago my psychiatrist mentioned filing me for mental incompetence and it infuriated me. I have calmed down and am now seeking a second opinion. In the mean time I would like to learn what exactly is mania? I personally cannot ever recall having this mania or hypomania or euphoric feeling that textbooks describe. I however am well aware of what depression feels like. I am also aware of my hallucinations and delusions. These are the reasons why I take anti-depressant and anti-psychotic willingly. However, I disagree on the bipolar or schizoaffective diagnosis my psychiatrist is now giving me and hence I would not take the mood stabilizer.
I do have spending problems, impulsivity, angry outbursts on occasion. However, the occurrence of these event happened in the absence of mania or hypomania. Again, I don’t even know what the feeling is like at this point, so it is hard for me to say I suppose. For the past 4 years I am diagnosed with schizophrenia with depression. I have noticed an increase in these symptoms after taking Latuda, an anti-psychotic. In the first 2 years of my diagnosis before I took Latuda, I did not have spending problems or angry outbursts at all. I did mention this to my psychiatrist, however he dismissed the taking of fluoxetine and latuda as having anything to do with my anger.
From what I have read, Borderline Personality Disorder also leads to spending problems, impuslivenss and irritability. In my case, in the absence of any mood element when these events occurred is why I believe I do not have bipolar or need a mood stabilizer, but rather Dialectical Behavioural Therapy would help me a lot. Please let me know what you guys think. Thanks.