What is life and why do we live it? Sometimes i just see no point to any of it. The pain, the struggles, the fighting it all seems pointless. Honestly the only thing that has kept me going os the beief that one day it will all be better. But im starting to lose hope. Os that what life is a sick game where they make u hurt so much u want to quit but your given just enough to want to keep trying. I do eveeything right. I work and excersize i make goals. I achieve some, i work hard. But it gets me no where. I still feel like im where i started. So many dissappintments. I talk to people, or at least try to. But i always feel as if i cause them more trouble than im worth. I feel so unstable sometimes, i dont even know how i will react or what ill do. Like a tocking tome bomb and any second ill just explode. I cant seem to relax either so my brain is constantly going around and around in circles thi king ten million different thoughts. Every decision every action means so much to me. But yet nothing really matters at all. It could all just fade away. Im getting tired of having to fight every day to be ok. Tired of trying to find solutions that dont exist. But i cant stop searching because if there is no solution then i may as well be dead. I dont want to live in a broken world where i am unable to achieve the things i desire. Thats all i have is goals and when i cant fight for them anymore they all become worthless. Because i just dont like it here, i dont like anything and the reason i do things is because i believe theyll get me somewhere. Somewhere where i will finally reach a place where i can look in the mirror and be ok. Where i can be happy with what ive done and know ive made some difference some thing good. But every reached goal becomes meaningless and just makes room for the next one. It never ends and yet i cant stop it. Cause if i do then i have nothing and if theres nothing then it all breaks and my world shatters. So what is life. I feel like it is hell. See if hell was staright pain u would get ised to it, but if in between the pain they give u a tiny drop of joy or hope you stupidly come alive again and allow urself to feel. Just as u begin to relax ur crashing through the floor again. You want to scream and cry but u cant because it does nothing. And u find urself in this perlefual circle that u cant escape prchange and u keep trying. But with every failed attempt your energy decreases and ur will to fight diminishes. This is hell where u r slowly being broken and torn apart. With no escape but to try to jold on and hope that soon it will alm be over.
I remember seeing this quote in my 20’s and feeling like it is pretty much how I feel about what we’ve made of life and happens to be the story of mine.
“The strong do what they will the weak suffer what they must” -Thucydides
I guess my quote in turn is “But how strong the “weak” are and often how weak the “strong” turn out to be”
Sometimes its not only if you can its more like if you want to. Cause ypu can survive so much pain and suffering when u know that there is an end goal something achiavable. But when theres nothing left to fight for it all becomes meaningless doesnt it.
I don’t know man
What exactly do you want in life?
I want to be an amazing actress and stunt performer. I want to also create music and paont beautiful paintings. I want yo do a whole bunch of fun activities and travel the world. I want to get reakky good at martial arts and be able to kock anyones ass. I want to own a penthoise suite and own a couple puppies. I want to hsve lots of money so i can do whatever i want. I want to learn many things and be powerful. I want to change theworld and make a difference. I want to prove my theories correct. I wsnt to be happy and relaxed. I know exactly what i want just cant gdt there fast enough.
I suggest your goals be created and driven around helping others. Feed the homeless leave a coin where a kid can find it. Help animals. This is our purpose in my eyes. And if the gods laugh more â– â– â– â– them you did better than the game !
I want to help others by inspiri g them showing people that you can do anythi g u set ur mind on. Proving that their is no gender divide and that its the individual that determines their own capabilities for everything. Whatever you believe u can do you can.
Oh I’m so impressed.
There’s so much you want in life.
I think it’s even courageous to say what you want when you don’t seem to get them.
Who knows what your life will turn out to be.
Good luck.
Thank you. One thing that has always gotten me through so far os my belief that no matter the pain i can create a dream and show everyone that anythi g is possible. Its my reason for living for fighting through everyday.
The secret to life died with George Harrison.