There have been a few struggles today. (for more then just me… as I’ve been reading)
A few hits of negativity have snuck in. I’ve been working to fight it.
My sis got sent home sick today… I hate it when she’s sick. I’m on short hours this season.
Today has been lounge around the house day…
But I’m trying to find something positive or at least constructive to pull out of today… So… I finished my homework and got this weeks assignment submitted two days early.
The landlord will let people decorate the big tree in the court yard for the winter holidays… that’s fun for me.
I’m trying to push some positive vibe out into the universe…
Been playing gta v with my cousin. It’s an ample and valid distraction from the whole situation. Still dealing with delusions though. I keep finding little evidences to support them. But it’s been a good day went to the grocery store and stocked up. Been keeping the voices at bay all day through keeping myself busy.
I felt bonded with my little sister when I found out that she had coughed so hard she threw up too.
I had a nice dinner with my dad and the younger siblings at their church.
There was this moment in the car with my dad when he was talking about Tylenol and Granddaddy. I knew he missed his mom and dad in that moment, because it is near the holidays. I know it is a sad thing, but it helps me to know that we all feel the loss of our parents. I often think about losing mine and what it will be like after. It makes me want to carpe diem.
Out of the maze that is Safeway I found the ingredients for sausage balls. Should make enough to give some away on Thanksgiving. Didn’t find any ‘normal’ brands of sausage.
my mom cut my hair today and gave me $40 to take Angie out to eat. I told Angie that I was also this holiday going to buy a small Christmas tree so we decided to buy one with the $40. It’s amazing what you get for your money when you’re not shoveling your wallet out to your dealer !
On my mom’s computer tonight, we found her grandmothers headstone that she had never seen before, made her both happy and a little sad (her grandmother died a few days after giving birth (to my mom’s father), she was only 29 years old.
I bought my mums Christmas present and a few for my family and my mrs. With the help of my big sister😃 the joy of buying for others I find Is threpautic.