I find out that I can manage a simple full time job. I worked 44 hrs a week for 9 months now. I feel that it’s manageable. A lot of the time I am early for work and I often don’t take excessive days off.
I find out about my abilities a little bit. I think that I’ll not work in my old profession again. Out of all daily task I find reading for knowledge the most challenging. I can make myself read a book. But it would be too much if I’m to read books after books. I have a better idea of what it’s like if I’m working again. I often come up to the conclusion that I’ll keep trying working for simple clerical jobs.
I have attended to several jobs interview. I think I’m getting better at expressing myself in the interviews. Practice still works. I think it worths all the effort attending to a job interview once in a while. It’s a nice thing to do learning to communicate with strangers effectively and learning to answer questions spontaneously. In the last few interviews, I think I answer questions intelligent enough. With performance like this, I think I’d got a job eventually.
I know I’m stressing out easily. I know it would be better to work on repetitive tasks. I know with some practice I can handle job duties reasonably. I know that my job performance is good enough they have extended my contract.
I put in a lot of effort in employment. I also find out the most important relationships in my life. I cooked for my mom with the best dried seafood and began doing the washing for her. I still feel empty and lonely a lot of time but I know I can spend the time doing household chores and better taking care of myself. I have not been able to do this for a few years but I began to do a little recently. I need to have better self care skills and habit. I wish I could develop better skills and habits. I would learn to take care of myself and my mother.