As I recovered my several symptoms, including delusions and hallucinations, just gradually washed away until only the memories remained with the experience of a healthy consciousness. Once diagnosed and medicated it took about 2 1/2 years for this very gradual washing away process to prevail.
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would u go back on meds and how r u doing these time during the relapse…i can imagaine how hard is the time
How long on the maximum dose of invega injection do most people feel that they have recovered?
Your dis-ease is different fom mine - actually most people on the site’s. So maybe I’d do better to not answer.
Many of my earnings from schizophrenia are valuable too.
sorry wt did u mean?
My teens and early adulthood before SZ were blighted by addiciton and addictive behavior. I don’t want to go back to how I felt as a young adult, ever.
I’ve been in remission for some years. I will probably have to continue using Invega.
The motivation is kinda lacking though, but it has improved the last months.
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Welcome to the forum:two_hearts:
Hope you will enjoy and be helped by it.
When my voices went away I was so happy.
When later my delusions etc went away I was so happy.
It felt like a weight was lifted off and a freedom and to be able to relax and not be uptight every moment.
It was just lovely.
I have schizophrenia but I think I am pretty stable at the moment.
I believe medication has helped me.
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Actually when the voices first went away I was still unwell for a year where I was just unpleasant and not happy.
I am really happy right now to be so stable and symptom free but I am afraid of getting delusional etc again.
I keep taking my medication but when I had voices the medication medication made me worse but that’s because I was on a strange unknown one that was forbidden in most countries from what I’ve heard it could have made me sick.
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Hey man! Haven’t seen you in a while. How are you?
My situation seems very different than anyone I’ve seen here. While coming from the extreme side of sz 10+ years ago, the absolute most extreme sz can get, I wind up being a researcher, writer, and philosopher. That is my role as far as community goes.
What it’s like for sz to go away is that you start to experience mental faculties starting to work well unlike before when they were jumbley, deceiving, and downright disastrous.
And then there are mental faculties that return which I have not used in decades.
When trying to use normal mental faculties in my mind, my sz would attack that, and stop it. In the big picture, in my overall mind this caused a dimming, fogging, and dis-coordinated effect all of the time. I had just ceased using those mental faculties.
Then other faculties mine which had never disappeared which were acting junky, these would always be followed by a very extreme discomfort of one kind or another. This too contributed to the overall mental dimming, fogging, and cacophonies.
ca·coph·o·ny - a harsh discordant mixture of sounds.
So some mental functions were attacked ritually, and they disappeared. Others became junky, and they never left, but they were attacked too. These were being attacked allllllllllllllllllllllllllll of the time for decades. It’s been terrible.
Essentially what I’m finding is that the “attack symptoms” are receding, and the mental faculties are working more and more smoothly more and more frequently while yet other mental faculties are returning which I’ve not used in decades.
One thing I really like is the feeling of being around people again without having these problems when I’m near them.
Word to the wise:
This process of being better is not something I just put on clothes, and it just happens. That is nothing like what I do. What I do is actively think, recollect, and process everything I know about what my mind is, what it is doing, what is present in it, what caused what, and thereby I’m doing as much in regard to other people’s minds around me.
So while I believe most sz people and other people of the world figure that it should be just a clean and clear process that just happens automatically under the spotlight, it’s actually something like me having to drive my mind very keenly, dexterously, and so forth. It’s nothing I can just let go of, and then I’m free of sz. No, it’s more like I have to keep returning back to the “driver’s wheel” in my mind so to speak, and get better and better at it. This is what brings about freedom from sz.
Freedom from sz is simply being mentally capable without burdens from within.
That’s what it is, and I’ve already begun it.
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I understand that.
I’m more after the experiencing world + myself feeling real to me. My other symptoms aren’t as important. I’ve learnrd to cope in my own was.
Though looking back at my teens - I don’t want to experience much of that.
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I would like not to suffer just want a normal life. Love my family don’t want to be a burden. I don’t want to worry about my thoughts.
I hope someday to have a place of my own and entertain invite people over and celebrate being okay.
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I will never recover from schizophrenia. I’ll always be symptomatic. This is who I am.
IDK. Maybe you’ll be the first.
I was told schizophrenics don’t recover but I don’t know. Maybe it is something else like bipolar or a personality disorder.
I have improved tremendously but I still have treatment resistant delusions that I some times think are or were real. I don’t hallucinate thank god.
I was very high functioning before I got sick. Maybe I had a lot of anxiety from energy drinks but now I’m rarely anxious.
I had prodromal symptoms for 1.5 years.
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I was the CEO of a fairly large rapidly growing software company before I developed late onset schizophrenia. I will never be able to operate professionally or be accepted at that level again but I have become symptom free with meds and sleep. After many lost years I’m starting to realize that I need to turn the page and just do whatever it is that I can do to live a happy, fulfilling life. The water under the bridge is gone for me. Time to find a new way. Maybe there’s a message in this for you.
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The treatment resistant delusions should wash away over time as long as you stay medicated.
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Great reason to celebrate. Why not celebrate in a park. It’s spring a d soon it will be summer.