hi…
ok, on one side its me who cant love anymore… but one of my boyfriends hated my meds… he couldn’t believe in me… and for another ill friend, we will remain forever alone because of the illness.
i dont know how you do it to have partners…
me, i cant even eat in the presence of other people because of my anguishes. but even if i get better on this, i will always be on the meds. and for the normies, schizophrenia is not nothing… my sister and my mother told me that they would never be with somebody with this illness. i am ■■■■■■ up. sometimes, i only want to be left alone, that’s the truth… i have constant headaches now, too much symptoms, with my trt i start to lose more and more hope. my strength and manic euphoria in the past seem to me fake now 
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Wow, I can’t believe ur mom and sis said that. How inconsiderate. The real question is ‘do u want to be with someone?’. And I can’t tell whether u do or not.
i’m sorry your mother said such a thing. my partner is my best friend and the love of my life. she has taken care of me while I was sick and a lot of the times she is the only other human I can stand. she understands me and my need for medication. I hope you can find someone who understands you and prove your mom wrong
First you got to be okay with yourself and know if you do want to be with someone someday,
I know it’s hard but you got to find love within you I am struggling with this as well I believe you can find it with your hart and mind have belief.
for longtime i ve only thought about love. but my illness is such that i cant feel it really. my personality is confused, i even dont know who i like or not… sometimes, when i see some guys i am close to fainting…
yes, my mother and my sister doesn’t believe AT ALL in me… they still think i will be alone being schizophrenic… a lot of people already told me that they are guilty for my state… i have never met so insupportive family. for my sister i am a zombie, for my mother- i am too sick. i cant believe in myself when i listen to them talking like this for me all the time. they almost laugh at me…
i am so sick that all the men are running away from me… maybe i just have a bad ■■■■■■■ family…or i live in a stupid country . i am still with the impression that all the other schizophrenics who i met they could still love. me, i cant do it anymore… i have too many issues- for example i cant stand a loud music,sounds etc etc… nobody will want to live with me like this …
I guess I am lucky to have a supportive family. What you are going through must be hard. I still have people who believe in me.
I can’t really feel love either, and all other emotions too. It’s possible I could be proven wrong about the love thing, maybe a very faint, dull sort of bleh
I think if you are okay with and accept yourself - get some confidence - it is easier. Your family does seem to be very unsupporting in your health. Do you have group homes where you are for the disabled? Maybe away from them you could get better confidence in yourself…
When I was first early on in recovery I thought no one would want me because I was schizophrenic…not true…I have had many relationships and was even married to another schizophrenic for seven years…if there’s a will there’s a way. good luck…sorry about your family support…sounds bad.
hi esmtim, are you Russian? my mom is Russian… the problem with her is that she doesn’t believe in any schizophrenic at all. for her, this is illness who never gets better, never… i prefer not to feel anything right now in order to can act to improve myself. but to feel so much sadness and negatives emotions is harder than feeling nothing. its tiring, i walk like a ghost at my house sometimes…
ok, thanks for the answer jukebox. my father died of this illness, maybe this is the reason that they dont believe in me… i should understand them also, they were both beaten by my father. nice hein?.. yeah… what a family of mine, they all suck…
but i need the truth. i even cant go out when i am side to side with a man… i get paranoid, i lose my ability outside cause too paranoid. maybe you also wouldn’t date a person like me no? cause every guy who i met ran away from me, i just dont understand why this happens to me all the time… they cant all be bad no? gosh… my schizo friend who is a girl she cant talk also sometimes but she still has men around her, she always had them, even in crisises…
could you possibly try plenty of fish dot com? that’s where I found my girlfriend. I was always up front about being on disability and that I was mentally ill…good luck.
Yes, I am russian, I been in US since age 8. Maybe u could try a benzo for ur paranoia in public. It’s not fun feeling like an empty nothing all the time either. My mom has a hard time believing in negative symptoms, seems like she only wants to believe delusions.
esmtim, at every small rebellion of mine my mom puts me a rivotril in my mouth… she doesn’t have the nerves anymore to handle my crisises when i get jealous of my sick friends etc etc… i really relate less and less to you schizophrenics here. i start to think more and more that i am borderline… and i find, that borderlines are even more stigmatized in the society than schizophrenics. we are quite a bit more psychopatics than the schizophrenics… i am mad because of my friends, they dont understand me… i spent the last 20 years in depression, never saying anything and when i started to spoke it was only bad things…i am tired, i want to die every night and every night. none of my schizophrenic friends doesn’t feel like this. they all go out. i even dont find myself delusional, i regret that i ve put myself without protection in the hands of the pdocs, i was a laboratory mouse for them for years… i had terribles side effects on some aps…and now my mom which i see every day. she only says -be active etc etc… yeah
Do this: look up DSM-5 diagnostic citeria for sz, and borderline. If u r right, this should give u leverage with pdocs. Also I can only relate to a few people on here, apart from most of us suffer in some way. Science has no idea what sz even is, we r all different.
ill never have one either