well I dont like how people talk to me on this forum.
it goes both ways respect is not given it’s earned. I didn’t harrase anyone and thats how people come into my topics harrasing me.
so what’s the problem now? bowens?
I’ve never talked to you before so what’s your problem with me?
You just opened a thread about how you were sadistic and talked about how you would “choke out” a poster and now you just seem to be randomly attacking people. Also, you attacked a mods judgement yesterday and basically insulted their intelligence. Your misogynistic thread was closed…
It’s starting to add up.
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nothing.
Unlike everyone on here I am understanding of people situations.
well my therapist recommended this site and I don’t like it’s just like gamefaqs
I’m better off going to a cam site or even coughts twitch*
Once i started putting my situations and problems people started bashing me Im gonna tell my therapist why This site isn’t for me and if i wanted to be steatlh bashed id stay on gamefaqs at least i have friends there.
Everyone here seems to be understanding except you.
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I never attacked anyones situations until today when it seems like this site just isn’t for me. If I put my real problems I’ll get attacked. what can you do?
Well, that’s a decision for you to make. If that’s how you feel about this forum, perhaps it’s for the best.
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Mate I genuinely want to see you succeed, but the two threads you made were highly problematic. I really honestly feel for you and the abuse you had to deal with, but saying you love abusing people and bragging about it is wrong. So is your cam girl thread. If you want to post here and seek help then we are here for support, but you have wildly misogynistic views, that won’t get a lot of people here on your side.
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As for the thread I haven’t really gone unmedicated, as I’ve been compliant since being diagnosed, but I have to remind myself how bad it got without the meds. When I do good I start thinking about coming off them, then I think about the worst I was at over the last 5 years and stay compliant.
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Can I ask what you felt like unmedicated?
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Well I guess I would go back to before I was seeking help for my psychosis, I just felt like my brain was cluttered and I couldn’t concentration on anything. Plus the positive symptoms were horrid. I was fortunate to have already been seeing a psychiatrist for anxiety when my symptoms started, and she noticed something was up right away.
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Can I ask what meds you take? I can’t find anything that helps
When unmedicated, I feel under attack by the whole world and I’m angry, paranoid and on the defensive because of it 
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Can I ask what meds help you? Do you feel completely disconnected from reality?
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The meds that help me are Risperdal Consta IM and oral, Geodon and Seroquel.
And no, I’m never totally, completely disconnected from reality.
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Daydreaming increases. So does irritability and anger.
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Okay Maybe my views on woman are wrong. Let’s take a deeper dive into this one.
When your master card with 5k credit goes from 1k to 5k in three months That’s a pretty hard debt to income ratio to deal with.
But!
The person who kept on asking me to go to the atm take out 500 200 100 in gift cards in all intensive purposes probably wasn’t a woman. Because that person still to this day four years later won’t come on cam. makes an excuse only posts pictures tells me stories said her brain needed surgery she would die in three months this was two years ago she’s still posting. I fell in love with a scammer.
But I fell in love with a man playing a woman. Posting pics seductive pics all kinds of pics with that same woman. for an entire year I was duped!
I didn’t even smarten up until last year which was 3 years later. when i started talking to chicks on bigo live me.
But your right I’m giving woman a hard time over really nothing.
The woman I met on live me bigo and even sex cam sites have all been understanding and aren’t greedy at all there grateful and I know there real woman because they come on cam and say my name.
so yeah I maybe a lil jaded from that intial person playing a woman but really a guy but Who wouldn’t if you lose 5k the 8 k then 1000 in literally six months January 1st my credit score was 850 by June 1 it was under 800 and i was 9k in the hole!
oh baby
but what can you do really? I fell for a scammers con but I can’t blame real woman for that because in all factual knowledge that isn’t a woman baby that’s a man!
but yea real cam girls are understanding and don’t beg for cash like CON Nie.
and I’m just butt hurt about losing so much cash over a romance scam.
there’s more to this story I just wanted you to know why If I sound like a misgyonist i’m really not I’m just mad at this one man or person who scammed me out of thousands but real woman have been super cool to me.
Well sort of soulful spiritual and philosophical. Its like the difference between being bubble boy and feeling real?? I guess. Well i smoke cbd joints and take pills for anxiety and stress it is a miracle and a very effective mix and im satisfied eith it right now
homeless having dangerous experiences or institutionalised
violent and shouting at people in the street
terrified acting extremely bizarrely and highly sexed