sometimes it comes back to me. the illness makes me feel sort of locked up or confined is a better word.
doing what I want to do frees up that sad feeling. but nobody has that too often, at least I don’t.
what’s your take on this?
judy
I used to be a slave to the grind ( working hard ) but now I really feel the freest just doing nothing most of the time or until it absolutely needs doing. But the ultimate feeling of freedom now in life, is knowing that I can go to bed or get up whenever I want to. I always thought it cruel to have to wake up when I was still tired. And also, now I feel much freer since I quit drinking, in that, I can go anywhere in my vehicle when ever I need or want to because I am always sober.
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Free is a lie. There are always cost
I get out on the water…
A walk by a river… a ponder by a lake…
For Me… I paddle out away from the shore… enjoy the water and the surf… away from the land… out in the middle of the ocean… It helps me.
For most… A moment out in nature… a stroll through a great park… a sandwich under a tree in a lovely quiet space…
Just disentangling from electronics… and all that jazz. That helps me feel free…
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I connect sexually with other men though only online and they mostly tell me I’m not shaved enough and then I feel so much like an old battered bitch in heat. Then I just want to hush back into myself. See, gentlemen, I’m not a ■■■■■■■ whore ok I’m a real woman.
Open all the windows in the morning while it’s cool -
I sleep. In my sleep, I am free.
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I bake whenever I’m starting to slip intosychosis. The clear, simple steps bring my focus outside my own head and onto something tangible. I occasionally clean, but that gets tricky as it sometimes triggers my OCD. Lately I have taken to lying naked next to my boyfriend in a totally non-sexual way, but that requires leaning on another person, so I only use it for extreme cases. I don’t want to feel like I need him to survive.
Lucid dream
Swing on the swing set
Pace in a circle
I go to work.
I like going to an antique store in my area.
Freedom is the most natural state of being a creature in nature. It is no lie. Enjoy it as if you were a bird or a cougar in the wild. Be wild and free. Be yourself. Be a part of nature and you will know peace and well-being.
i look at birds flying in the sky 
take care 
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I sing and dance in my memory…
my fav song includes …Lithium…by…guess…???
I feel free when I am asleep and when my cellphone and email is turned off
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I feel free when I’m on the internet at odd hours (like now), and no one is bugging me on the phone wanting who-knows-what.
Observe to notice (to see, hear & feel, to sense, to perceive) to recognize (if I do) to acknowledge (if I do do or do not recognize) to accept what is, to own what is, to appreciate what is… so that I can understand what is, digest what is and transcend all the crazy ideas in my mind about what is not that stand in between me and being with what is (i.e.: my delusions, including the very subtle ones everyone else seems to agree about, not just the “crazy” ones that cause them to roll their eyes).
I look straight into the perceptual hallucinations and the “instructions” and “explanations” the voices tell me as being nothing more or less than “the perceptual hallucinations and the instructions and explanations the voices tell me.”
I observe them as though they were just words running along on that rolling reader board in Times Square. I look at the “drama of my life” as though it was just a movie or a stage play, with and from which I am un-I-dentified, separate and detached… just sitting in the audience.
It takes the “weight” and the “gravity” and the compulsive imperative away from all those mental creations.
And for as long as I do so, I am free.
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