Just before waking up in one morning I had a dream in which I and my old class mates were solving mathematical problems and all others completed this test fast, but I could not, although I was identified as a mathematically gifted child when I was seven. My brain is not what it was years ago and that brainwash call in Dec 1999 must be partly blamed.
I typically have nightmares now. Occasionally Iâll get a good dream but it wonât last long before it turns into a nightmare.
Sometimes I accidently become aware Iâm in a dream which then inhibits my ability to wake up unless I do something absolutely drastic (jump off a cliff or something like that)
In real bad nightmares I will wake up more than once, the first couple of times I wake up I will wake up in the same dream.
I also used to have awful night terrors, my mom would constantly wake me up at night asking me if I were okay.
I had a weird dream today. I was on vacation with my parents in thailand and they told me I should go meet a girl and I replied âoh I did that already just down the street earlierâ and my dad says arnt you afraid of disease?
And I just calmly reply âI have no fear of death.â
Itâs true though I just donât care if I die.
Disturbing dream though
For about two or three years, I wasnât dreaming. Every night, I prayed to get my dreams back. Slowly, but surely, they are returning. I do get some nightmares, though, but they teach me things, too about me, about this disease, about whatever. I believe it was those doctors who stole my dreams; because, they were very mean-spirited, evil. ego, power, control, and money driven; also Satanic. Yesterday morning, I had a dream to go to Bath and Body Works and buy a fragrance that had magnolia scent to it. I went and got something called Endless Weekend that has raspberry ad magnolia scent to it! I smell so much more beautiful that I look. You need to watch out for your doctors. Some will steal what remains of you to protect their own self-interests above all else! Trust your intuitive power. Just because you have a horrific mind/body disease does not mean you have lost it!
I can remember dreaming a lot when I was well but since this illness began I am not able to recall dreams that often.
My dreams have been getting strange again⌠Feeling as real as awake time.
my dreams are scary, so i donât sleep much anymoreâŚ
I donât have many dreams since the Satanic evil doctors stole them from me in 2013. I get a few and remember them. Maybe, I have some and just donât remember them. In the day, I get sleepy and tired some times; but, canât sleep. If, I can I just lie there in my bed and suffer. At night, when I lie down to sleep, I am tired and sleepy. Then, even with the air conditioner on (it has been cold; except for today); I get hot and then wake up and canât sleep. All those thoughts go through my mind. Last night, I got up and worked a little bit. I finally went back to bed at 2am. I put some perfumed oil on my neck and held a blue stone in my hand and finally drifted off to sleep. I am still so afraid to sleep. Those evil Satanic doctors stole my sleep mind.
They used to be just as real as real life but now they are weird wacky nonsensical things
A lot of my dreams are about getting lost.
Rough dreams remind me how my mind throws me back into harsh living nightmares. Sometimes my mind goes on a kick and I will have dreams depicting I am raped or homeless at least once a week. Then no rough dreams of that sort for awhile.
Other dreamsâlike there is a living ME inside my sleep-induced mind, doing things that have nothing to do with my lifeâlead me into situations that are oddâlike I have never had roots.
I dreamt once of muted, earth-sized waterfalls. The visual content was super sharp and perfect. I have had other brief dreams of the same visual perfection. Once, a brooding dream was all GRAY.
When I relax, I try to lead myself into a dream I want to dream. I want to hear rainstorms in other parts of the world. I try to think about what they are like and I look them up too.
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