went to work its been nearly a year since i worked
it went badly from day one, i was gonna walk out same day, but gave it benefit of doubt as id signed off as well
gd almighty it was terrible.
people taking piss out of me because i couldnt take in some of what they said, i write stuff down so i dont forget, but they didnt appreciate that as they are doers n not readers so they were like so called training me but werent ready for someone like me to write it down step by step.
then the worse of my fears where they wont pay me because the matrix didnt work on my end for my timsheet so i had to phone someone in london n then she put 30 mins excess so then it was rejected but i told my boss who tried to get them to resend it in tme for the deadline the next day
but they messed up at their end and didnt look at it til next day and saw it was rejected so now i wont get paid.
everything has gone wrong i was hoping to recover my debts but i cant do that now
its really taken its toll on me n nobodys bothered i think i might just pack a bag n go cos none of the fasmily are bothered they like oh well go back n sign on
im just depressed and keep seeing my exes who are dead and they keep laughing at me.
no im not on my tablets and im about 20 miles from home so i havent seen my doctor. i cant get home, unless of course i walk.
but there wont be any electric or gas on because i stayed at my husbands while i went to work so i could pay my bills etc and so that i had money to get to work as it was a bit nearer.
sounds like you are having a hard time, i realise how hard it is to get back into work and stuff, i have been trying for a while now and it is coming along slowly but i need to take it slow just now, however i am kind of ready to up the ante so i want to try and do a bit more,
all i can say is try and take baby steps with plenty of rest, writing things down was a very good way to remember things and i think if you just say you have a bad memory then they will be ok, and dont let silly jokers get you down they dont know how hard it is and they dont know how much it hurts to be made fun of like that.
