I went cuz my friend drank 2 of 4 days. He had 2 months free of alcohol but then did that and he’s a real bad drunk. So I offered to go with him. I didn’t put so much pressure on myself. I’m not in a life or death situation. I drank once in 2 months and smoked weed on Tuesday. But it’s not life or death. My life is manageable and I gotta say aa was frckin awesome that way!!! It was great to hear people talk. I learned a lot. I didn’t say I was counting days. The only requirement is wanting to stay sober that day, and I did want to and did stay sober yesterday. I’m gonna ask my friend if he wants to go again tonight. I wanna stay sober for a while not forever though. But hey it’s one day at a time!!! After all. I saw this girl 6 days sober. Hot blonde girl she was wearing a shirt “not interested!” I wanted to say “aa preaches no ego…”. But it’s funny when I looked at her shirt she looked back at me like she was interested But she was struggling. 6 days sober she was so she seemed new and all. Hopefully 5 years she can look back and say “sobriety and aa changed my life! I used to be a bitch now I’m kinda humble”.
No one questioned me when I said I wasn’t counting days or anything. They thought I seemed too healthy to be a newcomer.
It was a big book meeting. There was one line that said “our most misunderstood friend, the manic depressive, could have a whole chapter written about him”. I wanted to say “I’m manic depressive and then some, where’s the chapter ???” I would’ve if they called on me but they didn’t. Everyone was nice . Good experience.