Well I can tell it's summer

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Because my PTSD is flaring up again. It does every summer, because summer was when my first psychotic episode was. It is especially bad now that we live back where we used to live when it happened. I have been having nightmares again. Some flashbacks. It’s been really hard. I’ve been drinking excessively, eating unhealthily and been fixated on having a lot of sex and basically doing everything I can to keep the feelings repressed and to not have to deal with it. My brain keeps going back to that bedroom where I was so terrified and where I was hurt so badly.

I know this flare up is temporary and it will pass. But it’s hard. It’s really hard. My poor boyfriend is so confused. I’m basically depressed whenever I leave him and it’s because I no longer have him to distract me and he also provides me with a feeling of safety. Maybe I will tell him about me soon. I dont know.

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Sorry you’re having such a rough time.

But you’re right,

These feelings will pass.

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I know how hard trauma anniversaries are. I’m sorry you’re having to go through this. Just try to remember youre past that now!

As for the drinking perhaps you should try to slow down on that by avoiding buying it maybe let you’re boyfriend help with restricting that.

And if your boyfriend doesn’t know about the trauma I reccomend letting him know about it cause he can probably help offer more support that way.

I’m here for you too anytime you need to vent. Stay strong! I’m rooting for you!

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I can tell it’s summer cuz it’s freaking hot. Whew. First day like this all year.

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Try to knock that on the head. You don’t want to become an alcoholic like me , trust me. Don’t throw away your future.

Sorry you’re having such a rough time.

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Whenever my PTSD flares up I fall into periods of drinking too much. In college I kept a bottle of grey goose under my bed. Then when the PTSD goes into remission I stop because the need isn’t there anymore.

Anyhow next week as part of my one dietary change a week plan I’m cutting back to only drinking once a week.

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Try to cut back even more.
Alcohol makes things a lot worse.

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Sometimes certain medications make you drink a lot. Latuda did that to me.

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