I feel like im pissing my life awyt, wasting everyones time, incl my own (?) what to do? have no job, no hobbies, no friends, no girl, no nothing, only me, a cheap white wine, cigarettes and youtube. oh, and the usual death-threats/you’re a retard comments… lol… it sucks, in a “poor artist kind-a-way”…
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Sorry to hear that I’ve been there too.
before I was lucky enough to find meds that worked… huge chunks of my life passed me by as I sat stuck in my head.
As far as hobbies… what interest you?
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@BarkingDog brah u have inspired lots of by ur article … u relly are good researcher so don give hope…we are with u… god bless all of us… aren’t u under medication…???
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I also couldn’t find my way.When I thought I found it,something happen and my mind changes.Hopefully both of us find our own way of life and most importantly be satisfied
curing my “illness” is quite high on the list. Trying to realte to people is up there. Other than that, sobbing, drinking and being an arsehole, lol.
Yeah, or just not a “do or Die” thing 24/7 would be nice…
thanks for the kind words 
yes im on seroquel, and been on zxyprexa and amilsupride and a couple of others before that 
I-dentification with victimhood was a dandy way to keep me down in the bottom of that rat box slamming on the lever to the “food chute” and getting shocks from the electrified grid. Look up “Martin Seligman’s rats” and “learned helplessness.” I don’t blame anyone for catching the disease, but once I knew what was making the disease worse, I knew I was the only one responsible for my recovery.
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fall in love with the life you have.
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For some reason I just can’t believe that anything at all can be wasted, for I look at Life like something that just by chance happens to us all , while the basic identity we have and express is all the same life just in different stages of awareness and forms with it’s own distinct point of view in seeing that every living thing is a part of “Life” itself as a whole. I believe in the eternal energy of the soul. Energy can neither be created nor destroyed it only changes form, and that statement would be agreeable to what the reincarnates believe in of the soul, but I am not sure of anything really.
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Life is just a quick 70 -80-90? Years on earth. Eternity is forever.
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Now that you’ve identified the problem, what are you going to do about it?
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Thisssss… sssssss
Sort of part of the bigger picture -
Is it wasted if you’re paying attention?
I’m right there with you. I can’t do it anymore man. Checking in Friday. Life is too precious. I feel like one more break and I’m a veggie.
BD: I don’t care of fifty people like this, this is the DISEASE talking. The disease is nihilistic. Nihilism induces depression. Depression induces more nihilism. It’s nothing but ideas and emotions… that come and go. Because thoughts and emotions are nothing but neurochemistry. And neurochemistry is temporary, not permanent.
As long as you believe that you are those ideas and emotions, the cycle will continue.
Your writing ability strongly suggests that you have the capacity to utilize and benefit from rational-emotive or cognitive-behavioral therapy. If you cannot get such therapy through your prescriber, I suggest at the very least purchasing and utilizing some of the many excellent workbooks now available.
If you’re interested, get back to me and I’ll point you toward those with which I have direct experience.
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Likewise as to what I just wrote above to BarkingDog. Get help. I had to. Over and over again until I finally ran into someone who really knew what to do. In the meantime, they kept me alive. Even when I tried to end it twice and wound up in the ICU.
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Thanks. I’m becoming bitter and hopeless and I’m sorry if I offended anyone. Broken. It was almost like a light switch. This is not me.