I have been struggling with psychosis (total psychosis for 16 years)
I have been in border-line schizphrenic state from age of 11 (Serious trauma caused that)
I have overall nearly 30 psychiatric diagnosis and permament one is just: Schizophrenia.
My Schizophrenia is Extreme Difficult to treat because Schizophrenia has started at so young age that my Personality is totally Schizophrenic.
Im not just Schizophrenic by being Schizophrenic
My personality in totally Schizophrenic also.
I can go twelve months with zero medication (0) antipsychotics or other drugs/meds…
Im 100% fine with myself… if im one year without meds… nothing strange happens - im just apathic as “dead person” meds usually makes me more calm and not feel so much emotional pain 24/7-365…
Im drug user i shoot the drugs straight to my bloodstream I.V (In Vein)
I was sexually abused as a kid and a substance abuser as a teen and young adult. It may or may not have had something to do with me having SZ. I honestly don’t care. When you break your leg, it’s less important how it got broken than it is to move on with healing up and walking again. Which I have done (albeit with a limp, lollllll).
For a long time, during onset, I thought I was sexually abused but now I’m unsure. I know I had a stressful/pressure-full childhood and adolescence. I don’t know if the abuse happened or not, the voices were what told me the abuse happened and also one single memory I believed was a flashback which was during a dream but it may have been a nightmare that I misinterpreted as a reality
No particular major trauma. Got a lot of verbal abuse from “friends” in seventh grade and 9th grade. It was pretty bad. A couple older kids picked on me physically at that time. This was all out of school. At school I was generally ignored, I didn’t talk to anyone and nobody talked to me. I don’t know if any of that counts as trauma, it was depressing for sure,