I really believe that the trauma in my childhood contributed to the schizophrenia that I developed. Everything that I’ve read indicates that sz has a higher probability of developing in people that have experienced trauma. My dad who has now passed was very rough on my mom and this was happening when I was very young.
Was there any trauma happening in your life when you were young?
I’ve thought about therapy and I’ve been offered it but I have a hard time talking to people so I don’t want to do it. I’m not bothered by my past traumas anymore either.
Trauma on Trauma and the psychosis was much worse than it should have been when it arrived at age 24. I’m sure I would need much less meds than was used in the time span of 30 year if people had bullied much less.
I’m sure I live with abandonment still and emotional neglect.
There’s some science to support this and how it affects the brain and development.
And I’m sure that the kind of parenting we get at a young age can be detrimental in ways that today many don’t recognize or know even is there.
I feel the biggest problem I have is dissociation through every stressful event or painful experience. I have no capacity to self soothe or even receive it.
It’s also quite frustrating when people assume you can or should be able to just rest or “get over” something. It simply doesn’t work that way… Not for everyone.
And honestly I didn’t even know the brain was such a problem for MI for a while and wanted to believe I could fight through it or something…
What dispelled that idea was the story of a group of teens who were struck by lightning and had their brains rewired from it.
Guess what? They are chronically massive depressed to the point that they can barely talk or move. They have not recovered afaik either or they are extremely difficult to get any progress towards recovery.
Yeah my dad has some kind of personality disorder. He’s done horrible horrible things to me and pretty much anyone who gets close to him. I think it contributed. That being said I’ve seen people way worse off who never developed the disease.