I first wabt to apologize to anyone who has read my older posts. If I have confused you, or if it seemed like I was not giving your full attention I am sorry. I do not want to confuse anyone nor do I ignore anyone. I have just been going through a weird rollercoaster ride. I am also not that technically inclined, meaning I don’t understand the full functions of this website on how to use it.
I have been on multiple medication and I have taken multiple supplements. When I first started searching through this website I saw the craze of sarcosine. I tried it for a few months, with the beginning weeks from it not being very effective BUT I dont know if it was because of my I’ll tolerance to Prolixin or if it was unwanted side effects of the sarcosine…
In any case, during the month of April 2019 I began taking paliperidone 3mg. The first two weeks I was symptom free! No psychosis, no delusional thoughts, clear mind without intrusive thoughts, no obsessive disorder, but I had slight depression which was manageable. I was sleeping normally as I was able to even with environmental issues waking me up too early (what with my cat waking me up at 3am, or the tv had a commercial on that was too loud, or I had too much energy that woke me up too early.)
During the time I was taking the new medication I couldnt work because of the physical side effects of the invega (dizziness, light headed, brain fog, confusion, and spaced out.) This happened during the third week of taking it. The only reason why I kept taking it was because 1) it made me feel normal for the first time in 11 years, 2) my DNA test concluded that I have a VERY high affinity to side effects from every antipsychotic from zyprexa, abilify, Prolixin and such and this one was ranked top for the least amount, and 3) well… I just liked how normal I felt.
After the third week of not feeling the same from when I started taking invega I was juggling from going back to work with my current employer who had never dealt with someone like me to getting an accommodation letter to go back to work which took another 3 weeks to get done to taking care of my boyfriend to doing daily house chores to going grocery shopping to everything else… I noticed that after drinking Bai Coconut infusion I felt slightly better for a few hours. Mind you, when I first took this medication I was very, very sensitive to everything I ingested. Even one half cup of coffee made me feel wired. So… I took vitamin e and felt normal again. That stopped working after 5 days… So I tried phosphatidylserine which worked for an entire week but made me depressed and psychotic (major flatness with alot of auditory hallucinations that were all relevant to my personal life’s stressors.) Then I took 5htp for the depression which made me feel normal. Now when I take it I feel slightly normal but my OCD symptoms come back…
So… I stopped taking everything for a while just to see what would happen. Nothing much has changed so far… It is like taking Prolixin all over again, being forgetful, feeling depressed one moment until life situations happen then I don’t get the choice to not do something about it So I get stressed, motivate myself to take charge to do things and by the end of the day I am feeling like not enough is accomplished because I am the only one doing things.
Back to the track, in the beginning of April, my doctor said that since I was tolerating invega at 6mg I can try out the injection. I took the first injection about 2 weeks and 3 days ago. I felt slight moments lime when I first took the medication but it would only last for a few seconds to 3 minutes. Last week and 3 days I took the second injection. So far I have had no relief like I did when I first took this medication. In total, I have been taking g this medication, both tablet and injection, for about two months. I might be becoming tolerant to it by now like I have with just about every single antipsychotic.
Monday this week I thought maybe choline could help with my memory. I bought phosphatidylcholine yesterday, took it this morning about 3 hours ago, and I have come to posting this about 30 minutes ago. I also bought alpha gpc because I read that phosphatidylcholine isn’t as strong as a more concentrated choline compound. The alpha gpc has arrived and is sitting in the leasing office at my apartment just… Waiting… They close at 5:30pm. I dont get off of work until that time… I am going to call them today (hopefully I can remember to do this) and see if they can leave it next to my door.
But honestly… I am thinking that if any of the supplements along with my medication hasn’t worked like the first time I have taken invega I dont think this will. I want to give up on all this BS, both the invega and supplements, but I can’t otherwise I can not be depended on for duties and obligations that are expected of me.
So… I thought earlier that maybe risperdal will have a better effect since invega is the main metabolite of risperdal. If not that then maybe increasing the dose of invega will help (which will probably be better than switching medication again.)
If any advice is given from this then it is very welcomed. If needed expression of opinion is given from this (whether good or bad) then it is welcomed. If you just want to see what I wanted to say then… I really, honestly, hopefully and optimistically say I wish you do better than I do.
To those who have read this post thus far… Thank you.
That’s a big ass wall of bricks to read
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Thats my life. At least I am trying.
Don’t give up!! You’ll find something that works. I’m still trying too. It takes forever but stay positive and hopeful.
If you stop taking everything you’ll end up in hospital or much more cognitively impaired. It’s not worth it:( keep trying Any supplements or medications. You’ll find the right ones eventually. It is tiring though
You know what… Thats EXACTLY how I feel! It’s tiring to find what happened when I first took invega and everything was just about perfect. And you might be right. I have been trying for 11 years now. At least SOMETHING that made me have a GLIMPS of what I want to feel came out of it. Thank you! I just really, really wish I knew what happened.